A transient rainbow ; I think it must be a bridge to you

2012-01-28T10:55:00.000-08:00

One of the BEST Memories Everrrr.

Will be heading back to camp tomorrow after the CNY's holiday.

Honestly speaking, I would take back everything I said before about going to NS. I personally think that people who got chosen should really join the camp. You wouldn't regret it. In fact, it would also be one of the best thing that can happen in your life.

I just want to be there now.

And everytime when I have a problem or when I'm in a bad mood, I would only think of going back to camp. I love NS and I wish it could last longer! 3 months is too short! Altho there might have some times and some situations that we might not like, but we'll get used to it in time. And when you really think about it, it's not really that bad after all.

& I look forward to everyday in NS. Really :')

*personal opinion la of course. some may think differently. lol!

Till then.

Will be back after 1 month + !

Surprise!

2012-01-03T18:40:00.000-08:00

Lougong,

this is for you.

By the time you read this I am most probably in NS already. And con lan firm you stalk me kao kao so I know you'll read it. Speaking of NS, it's so sad to leave for you 3 months. Really depressing. I don't know how to hold myself together everytime I count the days left with you until I leave. Maybe it's not a big deal but I'm so used to seeing you every single day. And it'll be hell if I couldn't. 3 months is going to be hell to me.

This is our 7/8 months together. Not very long but our journey was too good to be true. How can I not notice you before? So round and chubby. It's impossible to not notice you now! I admire your patience and your ability to tell all sorts of grandma stories and 'da dao li'.

One of the best line 'There is actually no problem unless a person creates it' .

Something to remember for a very long time! I'm gonna miss it. Like moments when I'm all negative and emo, you'll sure have your charm to make me feel better. Maybe this is just like any other blog post or love letter to a boyfriend, but at least I mean it. We all know it's true.

But since you were so jealous about other guys out there, which is why I'm writing one to you now. I'm not very good in words and I suck in languages and we normally communicate in Chinese, but I hope this will do.

Anyway, thanks for everything. Like really everything. The times you sacrifice yourself for me just to make me feel better or make life easier for me. You think I don't know but I know. You think you're keeping a secret from me but others will tell me too. So when I randomly say thank you to you, or apologise to you, it means that I know something that you think I don't know. And still, thank you. I still can read what your mind is thinking. Sometimes just to act as if I don't know because your reactions are just too cute.

You may not be the perfect boyfriend. And you may not look like Rain. Haha. But you are one of a kind. Quite mature for a 17 year old guy and very understanding, although you may be slow in guessing.

Lougong ar, I'm so going to miss you. You're going to miss me too right? :) I'm gonna miss the times we sing our lungs out in the car. I'm gonna miss wiggling with you and learning cantonese songs. I'm going to miss washing cars with you and playing with Meimei. I'm going to miss watching movie with you every weekend and having 3 meals with you everyday. I'm going to miss Skyping with you every night. I'm going to miss laying on your tummy. I'm going to miss sitting in your car. I'm going to miss your smell. I'm going to miss your voice. I'm going to miss you 'ageo-ing'.

3 months sound like I'm going away forever -.-

Uhh, and I'm the only one that I know who's so smart to enter NS -.-

Well, lougong, we'll miss a few things together in the beginning of 2012 but we have a long future ahead! I'm looking forward to our never ending :p Screw what other people say about our relationship and things like how our thinking will change when we grow older. For now, I only know that I love you and I've never love someone like you. Never thought I could but I'm pretty much dedicated to this relationship.

Please work well in my mommy's office when I'm away! I'm sure you are good in talking with the aunties!

Wait for me.

I'll be back as soon as I can!

Like you say, we have to sleep early every night so that the day pass faster and we'll see each other very very soon!

Missing you like crazy already half cook fry fishball ♥

Prom '11

2011-12-19T13:26:00.000-08:00

Our Prom on the 9th of December.

It still doesn't feel like it's the end of high school. But it is.

I can't help having thoughts like 'xiuming, you should be studying. SPM LA!' but then I realised SPM ended loooong ago.

Nothing to say about SPM. What's done is done.

And on the 9th of December,

NamKor brought me to A Cut Above early that day to help me set up. It was my first time there actually -.- Some rich people who can afford themselves there. Crazy expensive but of course they were good. Even the guy who washed my hair and massaged my head was better by 10x than other saloons I've been to. And he was just a Junior from what I can remember.

Satisfied? :) I am. Well I was a little hungry so we had dessert in Pyramid first and got some stuff from Guardian. NamKor did his last minute shopping for a formal wear that day itself. We headed to Carmen's house after that to wait for the others.

MingLi came after a while. Carmen was busy with herself. JaeSern and ChinKeat reached too. XingDe and NamKor took bath and change. All of us left rushing and packing as we were a little out of time. Two boys drove us to The Prince Hotel in around 30mins? Thank God the traffic wasn't really bad. I remember us missing a few junctions and had to find our own way in KL . lol

Everyone was dressed so beautifully. The hallway was crowded by the time we reached. As usual, we had to camwhore with everyone and anyone. I didn't had a camera but thank goodness NamKor had one. I lost my ticket but thank goodness they let me in. -.- Yeah, I was in a mess. haha. So we had our time outside camwhoring for a few hours? I don't remember.

They served us with a western style of food. But it was cold so it wasn't really appetizing. Hardly ate. The performances were so-so too. Speaker and mic too loud that I was really sick of the sound. Din't really pay attention on performances and I was out most of the time.

We were called back in for the Prom King & Queen nominations. I expected more actually. As in what they plan for the Prom King & Queen. The nominations were good tho. I can see why they really deserved it. We had also the best dressed and the best mask awards.

Anyway, they had the slow dance for dates after dinner and a mini dance floor for dancing people. KahMing, Maha and friends were up stage rocking. So far best performance of the night. They were reaaaally good.

We didn't stay till the event end tho. Went up to the hotel to change and went out for a drink and some food before coming back to the hotel to chill. So so soooo much happened on that night itself. I don't think I'll be able to end this post if I tell it all out. Besides, it's not really a good idea. But hell it was one crazy night.

We all know why.

Can't wait for a new start next year ♥

National Service

2011-12-18T14:31:00.000-08:00

As far as I'm concerned, I'm entering the country's National Service on the 3rd of January next year. Yeah, I've been selected. Some of you may be wondering why the hell am I going for it. I don't know either. Maybe because my mom wants me to go? All my family wants me to go. I want to go too. Like to experience things I've never experience in my entire life. But at the same time I have this feeling of dying everytime I think of it. Like now. It's 6.34am in the morning. I has insomnia tonight and I can't sleep. The main reason was because my head was full of what ifs and what will happen and whys about this.

I know exactly how much things I'll miss and the people, the food, the society. I don't know how much I'll gain but let's put that aside for now. I still am wondering how am I going to survive this 3 months. And apart from everything else. How the hell am I suppose to leave the people I dear about?!

Yeah yeah, I know it's just freaking 3 SHORT MONTHS.
How the hell is 3 months SHORT?!

Other than that, I've college to delay too. Mom says its okay and keep convincing me it's still too early for me to enroll college on January. Probably because it's her reason to convince me to join the National Service. All my friends are signing up for their college and all ready with what they ant to study. I know what I want to study but oh great, I'm 3 months late from entering college. Maybe it's not. Big thing but I feel like crap still. Aih -.-

Things about this National Service, like the stories people told me before are all coming down on me. Like bugs, or food, or toilets. I need some positive feedbacks, really. It's hard enough to leave already. For 3 months la. (no big deal right) but I'll still miss things. And it's hard for me. I'm not strong enough to do it yet. I don't want to be like this sulking inside my own misery and tearing every night thinking. Let's just say I can't separate myself from certain people and I'm going through hell just by thinking.

What the hell will happen?!

I've been put to the camp in Perak btw. Not very far from home. Just an hour and thirty minutes. :'(

I'm going crazy thinking about all the possibilities and consequences and problems. What if it really happens?! D: I won't be around to do anything at all. If it really happens or anything likely to happen, I swear I won't forgive myself.

I sound so pathetic talking about this . But I can't sleep. What to do? Being pathetic in the middle of the night. How can this get any better? ;)

Last Day of School

2011-12-18T14:00:00.000-08:00

Very last day of school! Can't believe 5 years just pass like that. So damn fast. :( I know it's not the end yet and we'll see each other and all but it's still so god damn sad!

The class that I've spent my 2 years in. With all sorts of people. Different kind of memories built that is so hard to let go. Tearing down the class was sad. I didn't help one bit -.- Looking at the others doing it was terrible enough.

We planned for a last minute class party in school just few days ago. Everyone cooperated well so it went on. We had 'pot luck' and everyone did brought something to contribute to the party. This is when all the hidden talents of my fellow classmates show up! Many of them cooked food by themselves! trololol.

Most of our teachers attended and some students from other classes. Everyone was having their own sweet time talking and eating for 3 periods straight. By the end of it, all the food was gone! Did some cleaning up and left to the hall for SPM briefing.

We had another last minute plan after that to have group pictures before school ends. And since all of us had our class T-shirt on. Headed down to the courtyard and started snapping random pictures.

This might also be the very last gathering of 4/5 Delta '11 :( GOD. SO SAD WEI :(

Everyone tried their best to stay back as long as they could so we could take more pictures together. It wasn't long but it was fun. College won't have anything like this, yes? :(

One by one everyone left. Okay la, I left quite early too :/

There are quite a number of pictures online but these are a few favourite ones!

:')

2011-09-18T07:48:00.000-07:00

Heey.

I haven been updating and I was suppose to be resting but I had this sudden urge to blog. I'll start on my weekend with the fews in GoldCoast, Sepang.

It was a super last minute plan and we're suppose to celebrate JH's dad's birthday there. There were free rooms and all so yeah.

Kor dropped me off at JH's house in the morning and we left his place in the afternoon. Played monopoly and rested during our journey. It wasn't long. If I'm not mistaken, it's around an hour or so. The hotel itself was really amazing already. Sea breeze and all. Just what we needed to release the exam stress. (speaking of exam, my trials is next week. god)

Anyway, they had this mini cars to transfer us from places to places. Like the golf car. Checked in the a small room at first but we were transferred to a bigger one in a while. 6 of us squeezing in 2 rooms in a chalet.

We gamed and chit chat, rested and rested until noon. Changed and left to the pool. I like the whole outdoor-like place. Played pool games and camwhored a little. We didn't stayed long tho. I think we were hungry so we left to change, lol.

Dinner was by the beach. We had a BBQ Buffet dinner hosted by the hotel. They didn't had much choices of food but it was okay. Not too bad. The guys started prank calling people, laughing our asses off. It was very, how to say, lovely in a way. Very heart warming and close. They had performances and beach games after dinner. The boys went and challenged the limbo and surprisingly they did pretty good!

We went back to the hotel bar after dinner. Prepared a cake and a song for JH's dad. Celebrated with him in a quite restaurant since the bar was packed. Same old family-friends bonding time.

Got too lazy to do anything else after that so we headed back to the rooms. Had our own time living in our own world until everyone came and join the talk. Some heart-to-heart talk wei. Gay ttm! But still good! Then we were hungry so we went out of hotel to a mamak near by. Had Ramly burger for supply and yamcha till approximately 2am? Oh, and our table had this SUPER DUPER GIANT spider .___. We could had flipped over the table! Kay, moving on. Because of the spider we ran out of mood so we walked back to the hotel again.

I don't remember much after that but I fell asleep and woke up 7am in the morning. Had my time with NamNam and we went out for morning walk. LOL. Woke the others up went we went back and prepared for breakfast. Breakfast was so-so as we were late and most of the food was finish.

Went back to the room again and rested. Everyone was doing their own things until around afternoon when we had to pack and check out. Had lunch in the hotel before leaving.

♥

Just what I needed all this while. A simple break. I felt so much better after the weekend.

:')

2011-09-03T18:22:00.000-07:00

When you can't turn to your family, who can you turn to?

2011-08-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wish you know how I felt, or you know what am I thinking.

You often say things that don't go through you brains. You often do things siding people and don't realise it. You often get mad at the little things and we often argue.

But ,

How is it that I love you and I've miss you?

I'm so hurt now I want to slap myself. Seriously. I wish sometimes you think before you speak. Things you say and things you insult and things you criticize on. I'm too hurt to apologies for things I didn't meant to say. I'm to hurt to make things right again. But you don't understand.

I cried at night, every night until my tears go dry. I want to sigh so much that I feel empty inside. I don't want to be chose over or to be sided off. I want to feel how they felt. And I want to be treated equally. But you never understood that.

I kept trying and trying to hold in what I feel. I try to keep in my anger and my jealousy. I want to explain but I never had a chance to. I was yelled at, screamed at, turn your back at. Eventually you gave up on me. I don't understand why.

But I blame myself for saying such hurtful words. I believe you were hurt too. But I was hurt too. Maybe more than how you felt. To the max, to the core, to the bits of every cells of my body, I am too hurt to do anything. I'm done with crying, crying doesn't help. I'm not doing anything reckless or anything to prove that you're wrong. I'm just done with everything because I'm too hurt. I'm so tired of giving in. I just hope you understand.

For all the years you've known me, I sure do hope you know what kind of person I am. I wonder if you knew. I wonder if you really knew. What I really need from others and what are the things I'm not good at. I'm pretty much lack of attention. No doubt about that. And I need people to understand. Sometimes I hope people read minds. Then it would be easier than telling. I need every single attention there is. More than ever. And the slightest hurtful things would just break me into pieces. The slightest, the tiniest, to the smallest craziest things there is. I just need it and I hope you understand.

Instead of looking only at my bad points, I wish you do look at my good points. I may not have much but I'm sure I'm not all bad. I don't have bad intentions or bad thoughts so that doesn't make me bad. All I need was the slightest talks about my good side instead of forever criticizing and insulting my bad part. Everyone has feelings and if someone have their downs so much, they'll just turn crazy one day.

I don't want to feel crazy. I don't want to have a need to go see a doctor. I don't want to explain again and again but nobody understands. I'm tired of crying, tired of sighing, tired of screaming, tired of explaining. All I need is you sitting back and think in my shoes once in a while.

I tried to change, I really really did. It wasn't hard when you compromise with what I gave in for. But things change just so fast. Why do we argue so much? Everyday, every hour, every minute, every second. Every single conversation. Why. Why. Why. Why is that that we lost someone already, we still can't be good to each other? He was loved dearly by the both of us and we lost him. Why can't we still be good?

Sigh.

I often feel sorry towards you. I often wonder why was I even born to make your life so hard. It sickens me. Tears me apart. I often feel sorry for the words I said. I often feel sorry that I was never as good as them. Really I am. I was constantly trying my best in another corner. Did you realise? How I want to catch your attention? I doubt so. Because they have already blinded you.

I just miss you.

And I feel too sorry towards you.

Sigh.

:'(

2011-08-22T05:09:00.000-07:00

The world is THAT realistic. And people are becoming more and more materialistic everyday. From Iphones to Ipads and Ipods, Beats to Alienware and SkullCandy, clothes to shoes and bags, diamonds to pearls to gold.

What else?

And to actually live in this world now, or even breathe, you just have to have it. Even the slightest needs. Maybe not for everyone in the world, yet. But at least most of us here, most of the people I know, people who are using facebook, twitter, tumblr, formspring, foursquare etc etc. What are the percentage of people using an Iphone? Or how many people out there actually own more than one 2k headphone. And how many people out there has a closet bigger than their own room?

I myself is facing economy crisis :( Having a hard time getting money but money I have is burning fast. I obviously am desperate for money. Money Money Money. I need money for so many many many things now. And in my situation, I don't and can't get money from anyone. If I never planned to go Prom, life would be easier. If I'm not that keen to learn how to drive, life would be easier. If I'm didn't see that dress that I love so much, life would be easier. If I never got into an argument with mom, life would be MUCH MUCH easier.

So many IFs ?

$ $ $

Obviously my desperation is getting me depressed.

Sigh

:'(

2011-07-26T07:45:00.000-07:00

I'm blogging here first time as an official Seventeen year old girl :)

Due to exams and occasions, I couldn't celebrate my birthday either way.

But I had this lovely dinner with this someone I like to thank to for making my day not as horrible as it is.

(the day was so horrible I tell you-.- and the only good part was at night)

I WAS SUPPOSE TO SIT A CAR, NO? :(

anyway, dinner was at Victoria Station. His treat. And we just had a simple hang out at Secret Recipe after that then went home.

Exam's this week and I haven quite got ready for it yet. Still here. Still here :(

just to update! lool.

back to studies :')

2011-07-21T04:16:00.000-07:00

2011-07-07T06:44:00.000-07:00

I know how long I haven been updating.

I don't know why I feel like updating now.

Feels like there's a lot things to talk about but I don't know where to start from :/

Both pictures above are from class dinner @ Shogun , Pyramid. It was very very last minute but it went better than expected. Most of us were present and that was reaaally heart warming. Tho I was late waiting for cabs to get me there. That day wasn't that good actually. I remember how everything being late. Everyone, everything, every every every thing was late. But I did enjoyed the dinner and I had my first driving experience. I was a little overjoy about it, still .

It's July now. Time passed THAT fast as you can see. Many things happened. 2nd monthly tests is in 2 weeks time. For god's sake, Mid-terms just passed, no? I'm trying to study everyday as I can. I just finish studied Chem. Mom's gonna kill me when she comes home and find me here again -.-

I have a couple of new friends. All very lovely and life's been good so far. No specific complains or disagreements. I hope it doesn't end that fast. I'm just beginning to enjoy it! (oh, mom's home. great -.-.-.-.-)

Anyway, there's just a lot of things.

I was a little moody this afternoon and planned to blog about it but it seems like things got better later on. So I totally forgotten what I wanted to rant about -.-

There's the Britain students who came and to visit the school just now. My class got Anna Marie who was really pretty and sporting. And Harry who keeps talking about loving bubbletea . Besides that, we hardly studied the whole day as there's a lot activities going on. And I'm expecting another free-from-study-day tomorrow since our class got in finals for debate. Whole day in auditorium ._.

Well, that's about it for now. Feels good typing something long once in a while. Some dead blog :( I really don't care anymore actually. lol. Until then, signing off, X!

2011-06-06T06:46:00.000-07:00

i haven been blogging, obviously.

Life's been HECTIC. like supeeeeeeeer.

I remembered how much problems came crashing down on me and how it became no problem at all just in a short while. -.-

But everyone so emo these days.

For so so so many different kind of reasons.

I'm having my mid year's 2 weeks break now. First week has passed and I'm left with er, 6 days of holidays :/ Had plans with friends to Genting this Wednesday and taking my Undang course on Sunday. I'm actually looking forward to it but I suppose I know how everyone's gonna end up emo-ing :/

I have a couple of new friends. Hoping I'm not neglecting the old ones. Not planning to do anything like that either :/

Feels like things are getting harder to cope. It's like June already? Ass, damn ass. It's freaking June. I feel I should at least get a book to read or something but I'm not doing anything that productive, really.

If things were much much easier.

I'm pretty much broke now. Like seriously broke. I have never in my life felt so broke -.- If only my allowance is more than 2bucks a day, I don't think I would be THAT broke ._. But ah, save money save money! So hard to save money okay! I got so many things to get this coming month.

Anyway, I was planning to rant bullshits but I ran out of mood. I'm not quite in the mood to blog anymore these days either but I suppose once in a while should be okay.

Feel like painting my nails again ;)

Black black black!

I don't want school to reopens. I'm so dead for exams :(

2011-05-31T07:50:00.000-07:00

♥

2011-04-29T06:14:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's the Big Grand Day.
Tomorrow's,
Sport's Day.
the very last one of my high school life!

And all I'm hoping, actually all we're hoping for is a better result in the end. We're not asking for much but just to not end up last again. We can do it, right? For the spirit we all put in and the effort our captains did, we have no reason to not get a better ending!
So, I'm hoping for a change this year! ;)
a happy ending ♥

Greenies Foreveeeer ♥♥♥

2011-04-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

Very Last Sports Rehearsal!
Gonna miss the bus journeys and the stadium stoning and supporting moments!
Will treassure every memories built in the stadium! :)
Green Foreveeeer!

www.raqulreed.blogspot.com

2011-04-23T05:11:00.000-07:00

Sri KL's Charity Dinner @ Empire Hotel, Subang.
It was good but not as good as last year's. Not much pictures were taken either as there wasn't many walking-around doing on the night itself.
The performances were definitely better and the food was almost the same.
Everyone was really gorgeous in their dresses and suits, definitely!
And being around gorgeous people makes me happy :)

Last high school year, need to be treasured ;)
I had fun! Did you?

2011-04-21T07:22:00.000-07:00

An exhibition that lasted 10 years and finally celebrating it's anniversary this year.
Lots of improvement compare to the previous years.
Something that has to be treassure and will be treassured no matter what.

Pictures will do the talking!

Daddy, I hope you were proud of all of these :)

2011-04-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

This was on Saturday @ Pyramid again.
Outing with the friends and to celebrate Shih Ning's 17th birthday.

My legs were practically hurting like crap. Technically my back was hurting but it affected my legs. Thank goodness I got painkillers.
Oh, I tore my back and shoulder muscle from high jump practise, lol -.-
Damn fail.

Anyway, X-country was before the outing and I was so disappointed that I had to sit down and watch everyone run when I can't. Seriously. Last X-Country and I'm not contributing anything. I was really disappointed in it la. :(

The friends had lunch in Shogun when I had deeeeelicious panmee with mom and bro in SS19. Went home to change and met up with them after their lunch. Went for a movie. I'm not quite sure with the name of the movie but I think is Ghost is Laughing too. Something like that. Ghost movie but it was really funny overall. Scary in some scenes. lol. I just enjoyed eating popcorns. It's been so long since I had them!

Chitchat, camwhore and walked around shopping. Usual things. Time seemed to pass by really slow but by the end of the day, I wished it was longer. Like, I could have thought of so many other things to do!
Dessert at HoneyMoon. Big disappointment tho. Non of us really like any desserts there. Dinner was at Nandos but I had to leave in the middle of it as mom left work early.
Didn't get to blow ShihNing's cake with the rest ;(

Oh and,
I was wondering if any of you owns a Fugitive Plan B CD set. As in the one you bought in stores and not downloaded online! If yes, would you be so kind of borrow it to me for a short while? :(
I really want to watch it again and I'm so so lazy to load it from the net!
Pretty pleasee!

TEEHEE.
That's all for now then!

www.raqulreed.blogspot.com

2011-04-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

Outing with the girlfriends and bonding sections with the guys. Been so long since we did an outing like this. I wonder what's with everyone's busy schedules these days.
I do miss the old times, a lot!

Karaoke, yamcha, camwhore, gossip, talk, makan.
Make the perfect outing already ;)

The bestest of the best friends eveeeeer!

www.raqulreed.blogspot.com

2011-04-12T02:17:00.000-07:00

Bi Rain, you're the best thing ever. Your Concert was the bomb. I spent only 200bucks on you but I was first row and you actually wink, smile, wave & respond to me!! Oh, and because I came SUPER early, I heard you practising and coughing and giggling too! You speaking Korean and English was TOO CUTE! Like seriously. Do you know how it felt?! Does anyone of you know how it felt?! Carmen, I know you do! We could have just died peacefully there without any regrets. Felt like my whole world is spinning and spinning. My head was spinning. You were sexy and the hottest even with your clothes on. For the gentleman and the man who every girl would fight for, Thank you for the best night ever ♥ ♥ ♥

I love you Oppa. You make me feel too happy everyday :)

2011-04-08T08:26:00.000-07:00

1.more.day.
Just 1 last day until I see Rain!!

What am I going to do when I see you :(
If only I know you in person!

TOO CUTE WEI SERIOUSLY.
SEXY CAN DIE.
HE'S EVERYTHING EVERY GIRL WANTS!
SEXY? YEP. CUTE? YEP. HANDSOME? YEP. BUFF? YEP. TALL? YEP. RICH? YEP. RESPONSIBLE? YEP. HOT? DAMN HOT.

I'm going crazy waiting for you!
You're reaching Malaysia later when I'm sleeping!
Waaa. I wish I can go to the airport to see you ):

2011-04-07T05:05:00.000-07:00

Hiiii!
I'm here to update you about my Field Trip with the classmates lool.
Guess where we went on Tuesday?
Apparently to the National Science Centre and Planetarium LOL.
What's our reason to go on this field trip?
Learn about dinasours and our planet laa.
HAHAHA. I feel, we super cute :p

But overall it was fun.
There's a dinasour exhibition in the Science Centre so we were suppose to explore and learn about them, answer questions and watch video clips.
I swear we were the oldest there. Everywhere was kids and more kids.

We went a little jakuned with the coloured walls/paintings and the slides -.-
Super funny moments. Teachers wouldn't believe their eyes! hahaha.
There's a lot epic moments and a little crazy ones. Why so hyper?

We were served McD for lunch and off to Planetarium.
There we explore mostly about Chemistry and Physics.
Watched a video presented about planets and stars.
Quite interesting actually.

The main thing that we actually concentrated was taking pictures and building memories la. What field trip? LOL. Thanks to this field trip we're having such a hard time writing so many essays after it.

Pictures pictures :)
I'm hungry man!

2 MORE DAYS TO RAIN'S CONCERT!
OHMYGOODNESS. I.CAN'T.WAIT.
OPPA, I'M SEEING YOU SOON :D

2011-04-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

Went for ChingMing for daddy last week.
Took us freaking 3 hours to reach our destination -.-
Jam like seriously, jaaaaaam. Thank goodness I was sleeping whole way through I didn't felt anything. Pity the driver lol.

Did our prayers and all. Nothing much to elaborate here. Same ChingMing as the others.
Everyone was a little sad tho. Who wouldn't be? I was so sad myself.
Sigh.
It's been 2 years. How time pass.
I miss you dad.

Haven done anything that productive lately. I just got my computer back from upgrading. Kind of waiting for my files to finish loading. Taking such a long time to transfer everything. God. Thanks to the guy who mixed up all my files. I've triple of everything unnessasary and aiya, all jumble up. I'm so pissed now :(
Pfft.

And can you believe it?
6 MORE DAYS TILL RAIN'S CONCERT
OPPA, CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU :)

goodnights!

2011-03-30T07:31:00.000-07:00

This week's been passing by so slow I tell you.
I haven been updating as I've been caught up with so many Korean Dramas and BI RAIN!!
But since now I'm transferring things to my phone, I have the time.

This week is all about drama practise and Green House banners painting. And I faithfully hope that both will turn out good :) I seriously need to learn how to cry with that sort of feeling that can give the audience goosebums. :S I must watch more sad movies and learn! LOL. I just hope I don't end up laughing my ass off.

Oh, and the only conversations I had with my friends were usually and mostly about Rain & MBlaq only. Damn feeder. I can't get over the fact of how sexily cute Rain is. If only I could make him my husband! TEEHEE :)

I'll be super busy starting from this week onwards. So many plannings and my days are packed! Especially April man. I wonder how am I going to face SPM. GG. 1 more month until Mid-Terms. That's just crap man. Didn't we just finish our first monthly test?!
Report card day is just around the corner too :S

& I'm pretty much addicted to SnowFlakes and TuttiFruitti now.
Super expensive stuff.
I must make sure I make lots and lots of money next time so I can eat all the food I want in the world. Like I say, I'm live to eat and not eat to live (Y)

11 DAYS TO RAIN'S CONCERT

Rain baby sho cute. I want to pinch hug cuddle kiss rape lick him
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
He's sexy head to toe man.
OPPA, NA CHINCA CHU-AH-E-O

xx

www.raqulreed.blogspot.com

2011-03-29T06:59:00.000-07:00

16 years being together (Y)
and still going? :D

This was taken after lunch in Shogun treated by AhMa.
I'm a little sick of sushi for now. Consume too much sushi lately :S

I know I haven been updating. I've been lazy and very very tired.

So this week is passing by too slow compare to the others.
For this post, I don't have much to say so wait for the next one :)

and
12 more days
until

RAIN'S CONCERT !!!
ZOMG. CAN'T WAIT :D

&&

www.raqulreed.blogspot.com

Good nights :D

2011-03-21T04:17:00.000-07:00

School started again.
What a drag :(
Holiday was really fast. Apparently this year is FAST. Too fast in fact. It's almost April now? And I can feel the tense and goose bums all around me as the days pass.
I wish life was so much easier.

This week is so results week.
I'm already stress enough.
So far only Sejarah I'm doing well at. Hopefully others aren't too bad :/

Twitter so addictive.
Much much much better than Facebook, no? :D

Signing off nao, X!

2011-03-12T23:41:00.000-08:00

I had such an hectic day yesterday -.-

I feel so tired nao. Haven had a really good proper sleep since after exam and I'm craving for one so badly now. I should rest after this but I feel like watching Ninja Assassin -.- Speaking of Ninja Assassin, Carmen and myself got Rain's concert ticket for 200bucks ONLY, without thinking LOL. How can you not want to go Rain's concert?! It's Rain man c'mon!
TEEHEE.

Anyway,
I was in school yesterday morning then had breakfast with Daniel. Hang around in school for a short while. I can feel my eyes burning me man. Aiyo :(

meet my annoying brother :D

I left to Carmen's house after a while. Waited for her to dress up and we left in her aunt's car to Kelana Jaya. Took a train to KL Central and then Monorail to KL.
Some experience -.- Public transport ftw. Cheap and efficient LOL.

Had breakfast then we went hardcore shopping and grabbing everything cute. Our legs were practically killing us all the way and we were dead thirsty -.- I feel so sick of shopping after that, seriously. LOL. Supper tired and braggy and sleepy.

Rain's Tickets? :D

Dinner was at Sushi Zanmai. We've been eating in Sushi Zanmai like a lot -.-
Saw the Rain paper bag above? You know what happened ? -.- LOL. We stoned in Pavillion after dinner and that bag was behind Carmen when she last left it. By the time when we were leaving and when she turned around, someone actually STOLE THE PAPER BAG. HAHAHA. Out of everything they want they want the paper bag?! LOL. The situation was really epic la.
Carmen panicked and her mom went back to the shop to get something and get back a bag for her -.- (Y) Rain's power hahahah -.-

Had supper with her family and they sent me home by 11pm.
Did some accounting for the blogshop and watched a little of ManU vs Arsenal match and slept.
Shouldn't had stayed up late. I'm so freaking exhausted today :(
Ciao!

www.raqulreed.blogspot.com

2011-03-11T06:18:00.000-08:00

MY FACE IS IN SUCH HORRIBLE CONDITION THESE DAYS.
ZOMG! :(

Had exams the whole week this week. I'm okay with some of it, happy with some of it and depressed over some of it. Nothing much. They're papers everyone knows about.

(Actually I typed out a whole paragraph of things but I don't know why is it deleted so I'm so lazy to retype it -.-)

Pictures la pictures.
This shouldn't been happening when I have the mood to blog :(
Aiyaa.
Next post la ok. At least I've pictures ;)

Anyway, Carmen, Mingli and myself went Summit today. Damn jakun wei seriously. Summit has nothing too and we were like dead bored there. Did have fun looking around a little but the three of us were super exhausted to do anything more.
Got some really cute stuffs too :)

I feel, I seriously need to go fix my hair. I'm starting to not like it A LOT. I wonder what's wrong with it :( WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT AR?! :( :( :(

Kaay,
Now I'm really tired.
Another day out again tomorrow.
Nights ;)

Raqul Reed

I'm sho cool 8D

2011-03-05T04:02:00.000-08:00

This was during Education Fair that was held in school on Thursday :) I had a couple of brochures to go through and a lot of information about courses I plan to study next time.
But for now,
I think it's best if I concentrate on SPM.
*horror
I still can't help myself from thinking about studying the courses I really love ;)
I hope that's my final choice tho. I haven love something and want to do something in my life so much. And to actually learn more detail and excel in it...
God. hahahah! I'm excited ;)

And this is my new Didi. HAHAHA. SO CUTE CAN! :D
We got the same surname too! What a coincidence, no ? heeheee! He's so cute for a 16 year old boy hahaha. I think I freak him out all the time in school :p

I'm suppose to be studying la actually ;( I did studied but I went Giant just now with mummy and I helped you to cook dinner and now I'm here blogging.
What a fail.
I think the only subjects I actually concentrated on was AddMaths and Accounts. Besides that I think I only studied Physics and a little of Chemistry which I've gave up. looool!
Other than that, I totally forgotten about subjects like Sejarah and Moral and BM?
Hmm :/ I don't feel the pressure!
& I bet that everyone's busy studying and stressing out now.
unlike me.
HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE.

This sucks.
I'm gonna go STUDY now. I am going to do it until midnight. Or before midnight. Dota or something before I sleep ;)
I'm craving for Snow Flakes desserts. So so so much! Or even better, Tutti Fruiti! Why is everyone so addicted to it these days? hahaha

Kay kay,
CIAO :D

2011-03-04T01:50:00.000-08:00

Exam's next Monday
and honestly,
I don't think I'm in the right mood to do any exams at all.
I'm not nervous one bit but obviously I know it better than anyone that I haven really started on anything. Everyday has its own problems and own things to enjoy and I'm pretty much carried away.
This is real bad.

First of all,
I was thinking if maybe some people should actually learn before they speak or say something like, "look into the mirror". Did you actually looked at yourself before you said that or were you blinded with your anger? As if you own anything I'm doing and as if you had that rights to say anything so mean. Have I done anything like that to you? Never.
It did hurt me actually. But I'm sure I'm going to stand back up.
Think again, who's the one being immature? I'm giving you so much face already dear.

And secondly,
I know I've tried and tried again. Got broken and break apart but I'm still trying in the end. I'm not very sure of what I want or whether I really need to do this. But I'm very sure that if I don't do any, I'll be sulking in my miseries in the end. I'm not asking for much but I hope you understand what are my intentions. I hope you know that I was different. I hope you would take this in a different perceptive.
It's not that I always want to brag about the same thing or take your attention. I was so tempted. I've never felt so desperate or so crazy for a certain things before. Maybe I did but this is a whole new feeling. Something so new I don't know what to do about.
But you never understand. I wonder why. That hurts me too but I'm okay. As long as there's something to keep me going.
Just stop driving me crazy by the minute. Maybe I'll stop thinking of doing something so crazy that would probably be one of the things that makes pigs fly.
I've been not making sense so much because of this :(

Thirdly,
Where have you been? It's been almost 2 years. Your presence around me is fading by the day. I don't feel it anymore. Where have you actually been all these while? Have you been doing well? Have you been missing me? I've been missing you so very much I don't know if I can stay strong. I'm terribly jealous of every children and friends around me. They looked so happy together. I want to look up to somebody and be proud of something in life. I want to have you back so I can love you again and maybe appreciate you more than ever. So I would have someone understanding me. I'm felt hanging after you left. I'm left feeling like a girl to be pity about. You left me feeling like I've deserve this.
Who else understands me like you do?
We needed you so badly. I haven realise how much you meant and how much difference your presence made our day until the day you left.

Fourthly,
I wish I could manage myself better. I want to do something I love in life and I want to try so bad to make it come true. I want to do something for myself. I needed more discipline and determination in this.
I'm so going to work hard.

Fifth,
I think it's time for me to actually concentrate on my studies more and not get distracted with little things. Exam's next week. I need to study. SPM is just in months time, I need to prepare more than ever.

Let me have my confidence back. I want to look up in the sky everyday and say today's a good day. I want to tell myself everyday that I am pretty no matter what others say about me. I want to try everything in life.
I don't want to regret anything. And so far I'm doing a pretty good job on that.
So, let me continue. Let me be at my best.
I want things to be worked out by every sweat and every tears and every hardship of my own.

this is my 400th post :)

2011-02-28T06:20:00.000-08:00

What can I say?
I'm hoping so high that I'll qualify lakerun!
May God be with Greenies tomorrow :)

Raqul Reed

2011-02-24T06:37:00.000-08:00

It's the end of another week and just 1 week till our first monthly test.
God damn it. It's almost March again. Kor's going back Australia. I've a lot to study. I want to gain weight and I've got a lot projects to finish too.

Thursday's timetable is nothing better than Tuesday's one. With all the Science subjects crammed in a day, adding on with the maths and so on. Really bores you to the max.

I think I did something really stupid yesterday night before I sleep.
And for that I didn't get a reply at all.

Tho, I felt a little bit better in school today. Except the fact that it's super boring but everything else was fine. Had a lot of bonding and studying in groups with the classmates :)

I'm just going to bath now.
Gym was productive enough. I wish I'll qualify for lakerun this coming Tuesday.
Nights!

2011-02-23T06:02:00.000-08:00

Hi. I'm introducing my twin to you.
Meet my twin. Her name is Ms.Skeleton. :(
A BIT EMO ONE LA ACTUALLY.

Feels supeeeer screwed up for bring anorexia :( What's worst is I eat 3x more than a hell lot of people and I eat plenty of junk food and fattening food lately but I.Did.Not.Gain.Weight.One.Bit.
Okay. I know I'm being a bitch that I am actually complaining that I'm being too skinny. It's not that I want to brag or anything but it's a plain fact that I have to face everyday. Whether it's in the morning or before I sleep. Whenever I look in the mirror, all I see is bones and only feel bones. joml.
Especially when people say. Eh you quite pretty ah, but a bit too skinny.
HAHAHAHHAAH. Not that I want to say I'm pretty. But a bit potong, right? :(
Skinny skinny skinny skinny.
I don't look good in so many things and so maaaaany ways.
:(

Anyway.
Exam's next next week. Studying more lately and my schedule's all packed. I don't know why is it packed but when I need time, I don't have time. LOL.
School's been a bore but also quite exciting lately. Temperature in class is much colder nao since we were provided with new aircorns :)
Sports practice every week and I swear I need to run laps so I can qualify for either lake run/cross country. Last year without qualifying is just super sad.
Homeworks are all around the place and I'm so tired lately. Haven been able to sleep as early but twitter has always been my company whenever I'm awake at night.
I'm a little heart broken about little things here and there. Prolly because sometimes I want things to go back to where it was. And sometimes I miss daddy so much my tears would fall. Especially when people talk about sensitive issues around. And sometimes, some people could be so mean and wouldn't think of what they would say before saying it. :(

I feel less bitchy these days.
Is that a good thing?
I feel like I want to be a nice person.
:')

I want a Cannot S95.
I.Am.Dying.For.A.Camera.

And please do visit Raqul Reed.
♥ ♥ ♥

2011-02-19T03:26:00.000-08:00

It's been a whole month ever since.
And you know what I've missed most?
; Dota.
But by the looks of it, things are just all not right anymore.
And I've promised myself a month was all.
Whatever next will remain to myself,
I wish you all the very best.

2011-02-17T23:55:00.000-08:00

Hiiii :D
This has been such an epic week. And it's finally Friday. Finally a break.
No la. I wish wei seriously. It's a week before my Form5's monthly test :(
I think I'm going to fail Physics HAHAHAHA. GG!

Anyway, we had our Valentine's Day on Monday. And my Valentine was KahMing HAHAHA! He has 19 Valentines :( Emo dao! It's just Valentine's anyway.
Tuesday was a holiday and we had family outing. Last minute plans. Mummy brought me and the brothers to Kuala Selangor. Our first time there! We sat the tram around a few places and went to the Museum then had dinner at RiverView Restaurant near some river -.- LOL, obviously! The seafood was gooooood. Except that their crab was all sold off :(

The following days of the week was a little epic and giddy. Had a lot activities and discussions among friends. Er, let's see. We had Coco on Wednesday along with Lisa & Livon's birthday; not forgetting my cousin. Then Sports Practice on Thursday with Mingli darling's birthday. Friday well, as usual we had our girls lunch in AC with ChinKeat tagging along. I was feeling fine and not fine at the same time but gah, small matter ;)

Oh yeah, and I baked on Wednesday. HAHAHA. My first time baking cupcakes WITH Icing! Thanks to Nat's icing recipe. The cupcakes tasted good :) I love it a lot hahahah. What to do, I made them myself right? :) Tho, in the end some buggar broke my heart! Fine fine, next time don't give. Why did I even gave right? :(

Anyway, here's the pictures I have.

I'm gonna Facebook games then Dota :)
Dinner outside tonight. I wonder what I'm gonna eat. Hungraaay already! HAHAHA

Have you check out Raqul Reed ? :)
Please do if you haven! And give plenty of support.
You will be forever grateful HAHAHAHA :')

2011-02-17T00:44:00.000-08:00

Raqul Reed
Check it out? : )
It's a blogshop Carmen and myself decided to open : )
Still new at things so do give comments and support to us! ♥

2011-02-14T21:54:00.001-08:00

It's a public holiday today. I'll be leaving for a family outing soon but I'm waiting now so I'm gonna blog a little:)

School yesterday was hectic and pretty epic itself. It's Valentine's Day anyway. Lots of couples with flowers and huge plannings on how they're gonna surprise each other.

Yesterday wasn't a good day but it was good enough in the end. HAHA.

Exams are just around the corner. Two weeks away? I'm really gonna start studying like starting from tomorrow! It doesn't feel like SPM year at all. Teacher just passed us our SPM form paper and I was like, damn, this just couldn't be right. It felt all so wrong.

I am a freaking seventeen year old girl now. And in a Chinese calendar, my ahma would just say I'm eighteen. Even worst -.-

I used to feel really good about growing up. And how I envy all seniors. They looked cool. I've always wished to grow up faster and see what's happening now?

I wish they do have some other way around life that's not involving any exams at all. Seriously.

I feel completely different to myself these days.

Just some random thoughts before I go. This might sound a little cheesy!

He is actually that kind of person whom make me want to look pretty everyday;

The kind of person when I look at, my legs go all soft and wobbly.

The kind of person whom I don't know whether to laugh or to make fun about or to get mad or to yell or to ignore when we talk.

The kind of person whom I need to stress about every reply whether it's texts/online chats.

The kind of person whom you don't know whether you want to look at or not to look at but as long as you start looking, you can never turn away.

The kind of person that is so sort-of-innocent and kiddy in a way that it's hard to believe.

That kind of person that whatever he does makes people happy.

The kind of person that you can trust altho you don't know each other much.

He's the kind pf person you wish you can talk to everyday :)

No, don't worry. I'm not in love or anything like that. please HAHAHA.

But I do adore how he is towards people. I mean, his vibe towards people is amazing. And that whatever we had now, I am happy enough.

On the other hand, some people should just keep their thoughts to themselves. I think I'm grown up enough to look at little things/problems like this. Thank you very much.

I'm going off now, X! :)

2011-02-11T06:43:00.000-08:00

I'm going to start studying hard starting from next week, promise promise promise! : )
It's another weekend. I suppose it's a busy one for me and Valentine's this coming Monday!
Whaat, it's just Valentine! No stress no stress hahaha. Everyone's emo about being rejected or lack of confidence -.-
Like me laaa.
I should just ask HAHAHAHHAHA.
But then come to think of it, don't want la.
I feel like giving presents tho hahaha! Presents are such sweet things, no? It makes people super darn happy. In my opinion. I mean, don't you get that kind of wow, I'm actually being noticed or someone is nice enough to care for you? hahahaha.
But, who to give eh ? :p

School's been good, and normal. CNY's just like that still and I've grown some weight (Y). Been busy with designs for a few things. Other than that, nothing special happened in life lately. Boring can die I tell you. I feel so lazy facing everyday of my life. Life without camera is super horrible too :( Wonder when will I get a new one. Sigh -.-
I've been super hyper lately I disturb everyone around me, harhar.

Blog's so dead lately.
And, I still can't believe I'm 17. Feels like 15.
Blog something else next time :(
X!

ask, don't ask? :o

Chinese New Year '11

2011-02-08T02:03:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year this year?
Rainy and cold and a little boring compare to the previous years.
And what's even worst?
Lesser AngPao!!

Had family reunion dinner on CNY's eve with the family at home!
Prepare prepare a lot for the next day. Not me la. HAHAHA! I woke up late and dolled up, went down for breakfast and greeted everyone then left to Jenjarom with the family to see daddy.
Came home and had guest and family members. Had lunch again then yada yada.
Played games at night with the cousins and drank then took pictures!
Next morning was even more crowded. The company's staffs came and had lunch then chitchat all day.
Mummy drove us back to Ipoh at night and we had dinner somewhere with the other family members.
2 full days in Ipoh was just like that. Watched Korea dramas to pass most of my time -.-
Came home on Monday afternoon.

This is so far what I've did in my 6th days of CNY LOL.
Oh and there's school today :)
Hopefully more AngPao's for the rest of the CNY!! :D
I'll promise to put them in good use hahaha

2011-02-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

HAAAAAI.
I'm like SUPER happy due to a certain reason. I shall not say a word here. HAHAHAHA!
I went school today still. Only 10 of us made it to class and after that one by one all left back home. I was with Er Eugene whole day and we did plenty of crazy things. HAHAHA
I remember I blushed till I had fever. What a joke LOL.
But today was boring yet it was really a day I wouldn't want to miss, kan? :D

HHAHAHA. I feel so good nao :D

And before I leave,
Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese :D
Have a prosperity and pleasant Chinese New Year!! Get more AngPaos :D

Signing off with pictures, X!
Life is good;)

2011-01-30T02:50:00.000-08:00

That tired expression in your eyes always remain in me
Other than your breathe, I can’t see your image and too can’t make you stay.

There's a lot of things I feel sorry for, but there's a lot of things I couldn't say.
For you who has turned away right now, I can only give tears.
Truthfully, I'm so upset, I don't even know the reason.
Turn it back to the beginning, turn it back to the time that you loved me.

xx

AIYER. EMO HAHAHHAHA :D
This post goes to yesterday's and today's.

Planned a last minute shopping outing with Carmen and Mingli joined us after she decided to. I helped mom in her office the morning before and got home and waited for them to arrive. Had lunch at Taipan's hawker stall.

Left shopping in the boutiques in Taipan. The clothes are not really that cheap tho. Nothing special and nothing I find very nice :/ We walked in like 10 boutiques? -.- Got just a high waist skirt and we left to Summit with a cab.

Summit's clothes and accessories are getting better actually. Compare to last time. LOL. I was hoping I would get a bag, so was Carmen but nothing was nice enough. Even if it was nice, it's too unaffordable -.- Got dresses and shirts and flipflops.
We even got ourselves 5bucks tank tops and tops. HAHAHA. Damn nice to wear one okay! LOL. Cheap and efficient wei! We were talking about it and complimenting it the whole way!
Everyone looked super happy yesterday I don't know why -.-

Has Thai Steamboat for dinner. Damn expensive wei. We could have save the money to get more clothes :( Food was satisfying tho. We ate like 4 person's portion or was it 5?
Shopped until mom came and fetch us at 10.30night. (Y)

Let me show you a piece of dress I got.

DAMN CUTE KAN? :D AIYO. CUPCAKE DRESS. NOT VERY CHEAP ALSO OKAY T_T BUT WORTH IT LA WORTH IT. I was so emo when I couldn't find anything I like. Thank goodness the girls make me buy this. I'm loving this best now hahaha!

xx

Woke up super early today to follow my mom to work. Not exactly to work but we just drop the maid there. We left to Ikea after that. Wanted to get photo frames but ohemgeee, damn expensiveeee! Especially the white ones which I want :( Emo wei.
Unexpectedly we met the Malaysia's Astronaut guy too LOL.

Yeaaah, we took picture with him and his wife -.- LOL.

We managed to check out some furniture and a few kitchen utensils and had breakfast & lunch there. The food was good and cheap! Efficiency! (what's with me and efficient LOL).
We spent a lot of time there and went Ikeano to grab some last minute CNY's clothes. I've chosen shoes over clothes HAHA : )
So happy ! : )
Went home around 4, I think!

I just wash clothes just nao -.- HAHAHA.
Gonna go eat dinner or something.
We still got school tomorrow :/ Emo!
Bye!

2011-01-28T05:26:00.000-08:00

Woohoo!!
I'm feeling good after looking at my childhood pictures hahaha. : )

It's another Friday today and Chinese New Year is just a few days away. Angmaos pali pali hahaha! Wonder where will I be this Chinese New Year :) Things just doesn't seem right not having someone around when that someone has been around for so long. I hope we'll be fine this time.

I'm done with my emo week as yesterday was the last day already. I'm no longer emo and I don't want to be anymore. I'm going to try my very best on this but I still can't get an answer for myself. I left myself hanging there until when the time is right and I'll know what to do. I think it's the best solution for now.

School's been as usual. Only had 3 subjects today and all boring subjects. I was so sleepy and having stomach aches for god knows why -.-
The friends and I went to Korean BBQ for lunch and then BR before heading home from school.
I should be shopping tomorrow if it's confirmed! Bonding bonding sections with people :D

That's all about it and I feel like dotaing now so,
stay tune, X!
:)

2011-01-27T05:57:00.000-08:00

It's been a week. The week I've gave myself to sort things out. I haven got any news or anything about to think so I really don't know. I'm not allow to do this to myself but I'm not doing anything to myself. I'm not heart broken either, I wonder why.
I just need to know what I'm going to do next.

School's been fine. I've just finish watching a set of korean dramas. No more dramas wei! 1 month is about to pass just like that. booo! This year is super fast too.
Class has been a bit epic and I've been the most annoying monster around, I know I know hahahha! Yet I feel good keeping myself off things.

I'm a bit tired and I've got cramps because of the sports practise we had yesterday.
I've been doing some house stuff and sleeping a little late lately.
Didn't study much as I'm still not quite in the mood.
Been shopping more than usual, for Chinese New Year of course.
And that was practically what I've been doing all these while.

I'm going to try sleeping early today :)
XX!

2011-01-23T07:40:00.000-08:00

because i love you, that's why.
and because of it, beats every reason anyone can give

2011-01-22T01:12:00.000-08:00

HIIII : )
School's been great apparently.
I've been tired and exhausted and a little depress but I'm still fine, at the moment.
A little heart breaking news but too big to share here.
I wonder what's the real reason to all of this :)
Pictures pictures!

I'm off to Pyramid nao!

2011-01-16T04:40:00.000-08:00

Look what I found googling :D
ahhahah! I bet you love it as much as I do :D

Looool! Look at the best cookie I've ever seen in my entire life! I can imagine how it tastes coming out right from the oven man! Crunchy on the outside and all chocolaty and warm in the inside. Mhhmmmmmm! Where oh where do they have it in the world ? : )

And and, I so wish this is Green House Tee!!

SO DAMN CHIO. I loveeeeeeeeeee it like mad hahahah! Another google imagine ;) How can you not love it?! Ninja Turtle fan since I was a kid! muahaha

Anyway, I'm too lazy to go look for what I haven done.
I just got back from Summit and 1U. I was in Summit looking for a job and I found out surprisingly hahaha. I'm good :p My first ever outside job. I'm actually quite excited. Do come visit me in Point B . LOLOL.
I haven been to 1U for agesss! Maybe years! Spent a couple of hours there shopping and dinner before heading back to Subang.

I've spent my whole weekend drawing apparently. And somehow googling of weird things. I saw this guy tattooed his whole body with leopard prints -.- Damn crazy! And this woman who's mind so sick that she lifted the I don't know how many pounds of weight with her boobs! Can diee! LOL

Kay -.- I emo now. LOL. Pfft. Some painful words man.
Can't I do anything I want? : (
Emo can die!
Bye bye

2011-01-15T08:35:00.000-08:00

Hello! So this is my first camwhore picture in my new renewed room :D
Look at how white it is! hahaha, too bad I'm not ready with everything yet so I'm not showing the rest of it!

I'm a bit emo today but yeah I will get over it.
Spent my whole day drawing to get along with my mood and listening to music helped a lot.
I'm so tired but not in the mood to sleep yet. I wonder when's the last time I slept so late!
Today's a Saturday and I'm so not looking forward to school anytime soon.
Damn it, this year has been too tiring. I wonder why.
Somethings are a little messed up now. I hope it's going to be okay.
I feel a lot grown up lately, woohoo! :D

I see so many semangatness in Green House today! LOL.

Kay kay,
that's all! Everyone's emo-ing today. I need to join back the conversations.
Good nights : )

2011-01-12T04:56:00.001-08:00

It's been soooo long since I did a proper update :(
Prolly because that it's been the same routine all days and obviously my camera is still not fixed and no, I haven get a new one :'(
And to think that it's the last year already but I'm not making any effort to remember these memories! Sad, really.

Anyway, It's been 2 weeks of being the oldest senior in school. I don't feel that old yet tho. But the everyday same routine had kept me busy as I am. I'm skipping a little study time now because I just had tuition earlier so I'm trying to put things together here.
No Pictures tho.

Class had been good but sometimes too boring. Teachers had been obviously so much better than previous years! Come to think of it, I haven actually really complain about a single teacher. And I'm proud to say I didn't drop any subjects :D Trying to cope with every one of them is totally shits. Tough man! So many things to study on and SPM seem so near already :/

I've been really exhausted lately. 2 weeks of renewing, remodel, redecorate and rearranging my room! It's pretty in pink now, HAHA. And I've changed all my furniture to white and adding on with pictures and decorations around. I got a new big bed too, woohoo! :D All thanks to my grandma for sponsoring and my aunts and mummy for helping me with everything! ;) Yeah, so I've been busy with my room and studying and cleaning up things around me. This 2 weeks had really been the most productive weeks I had in my entire life. No doubt! Non stop cleaning and I don't remember when was the last time I cleaned my room like how I did this days. haha.

Lets see, I was in MidValley on Sunday shopping a little with mummy. It was really good too!
I'm craving for ice-cream all the time. Green Tea especially and it's a Wednesday today, which means Baskin Robin offer with Pink Day!! I doubt I'll be going there -.- Loool.

We had our first Sports Meeting this year and had a lot of nominations and votings with the leaders! Let's just say that I'm satisfy with what my house chosen and I think we might just get a better ending for Green House! Let's not hope that Green will end up last on my last year okay! LOL. Go Greeeeeen! (No, actually I'm not THAT semangat -.-)

Anyhoo,
That's about it. I've a lot of homework to do before I go to bed which is soon. So damn tired again. I needed so much rest these days! I wonder why do I get some weird thought inside my head these days. Like super weird kind. Scary, :/

Alright.
I hope I have pictures next post.
This is getting boring : (
Good nights lovelies !

2011-01-09T07:33:00.001-08:00

I feel good these days, very good in fact.

Until just a few minutes ago I feel a little crappy already.

Good nights :)

2011-01-03T05:03:00.000-08:00

Hi, it's my first post on the year 2011, no? :D I'm beginning to feel excited and everything!
So, today's first day of school and I'm still in Delta. 5 Delta! I'm a 17 year old senior now! Can you even believe it? I used to be this kid who admire how all the seniors were and even their subjects they're studying makes them sound so much cooler than us juniors. And I'm one of the senior now! Last year of the very high school I've been in for 5 long years. And not forgetting, it's SPM year. I've got to study a hell lot more than I ever did.

All I've been hearing from teachers today was
"I heard 4 Delta was a verryyyyy good class. Everyone of you very respectful and responsible so I'm hoping that 5 Delta is going to be as good too!" Yep yep, my clssmates are that good. That respectful, not bragging but it's just the truth. Except for the few of us. Including me whom are the lazy ones in class. Not many but we still exist. LOL Altho many of us left and we're not so surviving now :(

Younger bro's in form1 now. I feel good having him in high school together. So this is how it feels having a sibling in school! It feels really good somehow.
I feel happy. And I've made up my mind to not drop Bio or any other subjects.
10 subjects all in all.
For those who didn't get what they want, really sorry but aiyo, live wit it seriously. Not biggie. We didn't want to end up in this class when we're form4 or some didn't want to end up in Art Stream but what's done is done! We're still living! :)

Anyhoo, this is going to be a good year. I can feel it. I'm feeling a little too good now and am going to go urm, study a bit? HAHAHA. Yeah I think I'll do that.

My chubby brother :)

And a few days ago, mom brought me and my cousins from Ipoh to Morid beach as well as Sepang Gold Coast for holiday. Just a one day tour but it was fun. I fell terribly sick again after that and had been in that condition for at least 4 days :S

A few days before that was Christmas too. I've went to a family Christmas party with the family members in Bangsar and ate Christmas food. Turkey for example. I love turkey. It was good. Everything was good.

A day before I went countdown too :) Family was outside having fun spraying those snow spray thingy at the entrance of Pyramid and I was in Amp Square singing till midnight and having my time. Met up with Leanne and her boy in the afternoon to yamcha a bit before I went for my own activities.

Not forgetting we ate TongYuen a few days before Christmas. Mom's TongYuen is good. I think I ate 17 of them HAHA :D YumYum. I did prefer white sugar instead of the brown one tho. Helped a little with the paipai stuff with mom and I don't remember anything after that -.-

Lastly, another few days ago I was in Parade with my aunt and brother searching for a few things for dad's office and you know what happened?! My heels broke half way T_____T I had to take my heels to the workshop to fix barefoot. Damn sad. LOL. I just thought it's funny so I'm posting it up. :p

Till then.
Ciao :D
Happy 2011 !

2010-12-31T02:16:00.001-08:00

Hi. I’m blogging just for the sake that it’s the last day of the year and I wouldn’t want to miss a post for today. Besides, I haven been blogging for ages but pardon me, my modem somehow has its own issues to deal with and I’m too lazy to care. I’m not sure whether I’ll be blogging anytime soon so, Happy New Year in advance to everyone=)
Oh, and this I’m blogging through Microsoft Word and transferring it to my bro’s laptop later -. - Sad.

First of all, I would like to recall back little things for the whole year. I’m not sure if I can remember anything, actually I don’t remember much but I’ll try.

I’ve became a senior in school, something to be proud of but I still don’t feel like one. And a sixteen year old senior. I’ve celebrated my Sweetest 16 at home and in Pyramid with my family and friends together with brother and sisters. Big thanks to mom who was so kind of her to cook for my birthday. Wasn’t the best party in town or in school or anything like that but I’m glad my friends made it. I’ve enter a whole new environment and came into a class that was full with people I don’t know and plenty of smart asses but they all were definitely the cutest and funniest of all. I din’t expect myself to enjoy this year at all but I certainly did. 4 Delta and I’m moving on to 5 Delta in 2 days! We has moments on class party @ Ashley’s and class trip @ Penang that went really really well. Then again we had outings such as Jogoya dinner @ KL and HyunJoong as spokesman for TheFaceShop @ Pavillion, not forgetting karaeok sections and school events.

Nothing too big to handle this year. I think I’ve been pretty much a good girl compare to how I was previously. Not boasting :p I’ve worked out many things with mom and our relationship got better. Not with my younger brother yet but we’re trying. Dramas and arguments with people around is definite but it was all okay in the end. Laughter and much tear shredded but it’s all about growing up, agree? I’ve got a lot yelling from people and critics from people but it’s okay. I’ve got jealous and got angry on a lot of things but it’s all okay too. I’ve lots friends and family, it hurts but it’s okay. I’m okay and I’m strong, finally I would agree that I am.

Last but not least, the year’s been great and hectic all thanks to people around me. I’m going to take a short while to talk about the people so bare with me :)
xx

Mom; For always loving me the most and giving me the greatest supports.

Jarald; For understanding and baring with everything I came up with and all my problems and anger and anything that can possibly happen for the whole year. For caring and putting so much attention to what I’m always doing and for knowing what to do at when.

Carmen; For being there when everyone was not and for baring with my attitude although I clearly know it sucks doing it. For showing me so many wonderful things in life and knowing every way to make me feel better or to joke.

Er Eugene; For being the best pet korkor I ever had and spending spare time together day every day. And for your mono attitude to here me rant all the time although it the end I’ll be the one listening but I knew it’s boring hearing mine.

Manesh; For being the greatest of all friends.

Lisa, Livon, ShihNing, FongKhei, Ashley; For being the cutest group of girls around me and to make the cutest jokes I’ve ever heard. Gossiping with you girls are the best and I think this is the first biggest girl group I’ve ever had in my entire life. For being yourself and being true but not so true sometimes lol.

DanielTang, Leanne; For being the weirdest, craziest, epic-est “twins” I’ve ever met and for all the good times you’ve gave to me making me a much much more happier person.

HenryFoo, Donson, DavidPhang, TerenceFoo; For being the let’s see, the nicest of all? Lolol, I don’t know how to put this but I certainly owe you guys a lot for all the times we’ve been through because I swear it couldn’t be any better!

Mingli, Justina; For being the friendliest and coolest new friends I’ve made and all the jokes and gossips we shared time to time. For all the outings and school days we gone through together. .

Last but not least,
All my classmates; For being just yourself made me feel proud and happiest being in the same class with you!

Lots of love.
:)

Wow that was long, this is 2 pages already haha! I’m going to upload a few pictures and edit a few parts and I’m going to go prepare for dinner @ Damansara later :)
Happy New Year and I’ll see you in school on Monday!

2010-12-25T07:46:00.000-08:00

I'm glad my emo shits are gone! Like finally, it's been dragging a little too long and doing no good to anyone. Everyday has been hectic enough to keep me busy and even if I'm not I've City Ville to keep me all day HAHAHA. I kinda, miss dota :')

It's 10 minutes before '10 Christmas ends so, Merry Christmas everyone. I hope that everyone of you enjoyed your Christmas where ever you are and to the very last of it. I've ate a lot myself too=)

Winter Solstice was just two days before Christmas if I din't remember wrong. Had mom's very very delicious TongYuen and lots of good food for the day. I've grown another year more, have you? :D

Bought my Form5 books too :( This is reaaaal bad! It's gonna be 2011 already and it's SPM year for heaven's sake. I'm already scared to the tip of my bones. Study study, sigh. I don't like the sound of this at all. Also there will be prom and all, dresses to find and many goodbyes to make. Another hectic year ahead and I'm not sure I'm looking forward to it :/

Pictures are all with others and in my phone since my camera still isn't doing any good. Besides the whole camera shaking like mad whenever I try taking a picture, the quality has gone terribly bad :( Mom said it just need to repaired but I really want a new one :(
And I will only have one if I have to pay for it myself. HOW SAD -.- Fair enough tho. I think I've used too much money these days . Sigh :/

How's your days these days? :) Doing well too? Hopefully.
It's 4mins to 12 now and mom needs me to off before she come yelling at me again.
Good night :) Will try to blog tomorrow.

I feel, I want dimsum for breakfast, heeeeh :D

2010-12-20T08:30:00.000-08:00

I think maybe, this is the only place I could speak out about something.
I don't know who's most suitable to talk to anything and I need to.
Desperately need to and I think it came to the point where I talk to myself. Okay, now I think it's freaky. But bare with it. :/

I thought about it again and again and I think I finally got the answer I'm satisfy with. Not sure whether I'm really satisfy with it but it's better than any explanations I've ever made.
I thought about it when I was texting and shopping just now.

I think, maybe it's just too bad that I'm relying too much on someone again. Yeah, again. And again. Maybe if I've learned to stop relying then I might face him again. Like c'mon? Who's so damn good to be there for you every single time? And I don't want to get all depressed and desperate when I can't rely. It sucks real bad and it's time I realise how deeply wrong it is.

The world isn't as angelic as it is, no? I wish I can not care but I'm growing up and it's should be realised. Realise that you can trust noone on any words or rely on someone just because they're nice or blindly do things without thinking. This makes me feel like I want to be a kid again. I'm not good in words and I don't have much to say but I do understand what's going on and I do think so clearly about everything that it hurts me all the time. Hurt till I don't feel pain when they come trashing down on me. Hurt till I think I can hurt myself and I don't feel pain. But that's stupid.

My heart sank deeper as it goes and I still don't really fully understand what's the cause of it. I want to cry but my tears dried up. I want to scream but I lost my voice. I want to strangle someone but nobody's so nice to sacrifise their life for me. -.- So screwed it.

Come to think of it, nobody fully understands someone. I think I heard that from a movie long ago and it's starting to make sense now.
I just feel like smashing something and putting everything away and pushing everyone away. I just feel like sulking in my own misery with nothing to do at all and do whatever I like whenever I want. Easy to think. I know, dream on. But what can I do? What can I possibly do? Which decision should I make? Every one of it brings you to a different road and I'm afraid to face it. I was never brave enough to take something so big to a different way. I just want everything to be as it is.

Sigh

Sometimes people should just be nicer. Or more considerate. I should be more patients and more big hearted and maybe more open minded and and more forgiving.

You know what I feel like doing now?
I feel like dotting (....) the whole night through in here and slowly erasing every one of them. :)
I feel like dotaing the whole night through but mom's going to come out and kill me; I don't really have the mood to play it and it's getting boring.
I feel like sleeping but I needed his voice.
See, I'm relying again. Again and again and again and again. I'm so very much sick of it.

Because I know clearly I loved him more than he loved me. And I know this has to stop. I want to stop yearning for him because he never did yearn for me the way I did. Did he? Or did I just din't realise it?
Anyhow, I'm too selfish to realise it so I'm not thinking about it anymore.

This doesn't concern on just one topic or just any simple problems I encounter.
I don't even know how many problems are there in, all tied up in one.
But I know I'm just too weak to solve them all by myself.
Still, I clearly know it has to be done, myself.
And I wish life was so much easier.

Goodnight.

2010-12-19T07:22:00.000-08:00

Will we make it through?
Honestly, what do you think?
ah, screw it=)

goodday

2010-12-19T03:11:00.001-08:00

I'm confused about so many things,
I've my bedroom to clean up on Tuesday which I'm not looking forward to,
I'm so pissed I want to strangle someone when they made it as if it was a joke,
I hate it when people ffk you when they agreed on something,
I'm addicted to CityVille and has been playing it ever since I've started it,
I miss having to hold a camera especially when I see someone else has one,
I'm dreaming so much about opening a Dessert Shop (haha-.-),
I've been having too many dreams every night,
I'm craving for kimchi soup again,
I just went for a 2 hours shopping with mummy and got myself a new bag,
I just heard there was people gossiping about me and my boyf to our parents,
I feel like I'm not looking forward to school at all,
I need to study before I face next year,
I think I'm not having dinner today,
I'm actually looking forward to see a friend from Korea but screwed it,
I feel like making pancakes now,
I feel like having brownies with ice-cream on second thought,
I think my phone's speaker has something stuck in it because it sounded weird,
I just read a girl's blog and wonder why and how is she that strong,
I don't have anything particular in mind these days and I don't think of anything,
I often get hurt with little things and I'm so messed up,
I'm often sighing out of no where,
I think I look too dead now that I might as well be an ugly vampire,
I basically have a lot things to say left but I ran out of mood,
I better go now before I start slamming on my keyboards,
I'm saying bye, so goodbye=)

xx

meh

2010-12-15T22:44:00.000-08:00

I'm back from Ipoh, like finally !! :D
I've enough of noodles for 5 days and the lack of things to do there:S

This goes to a super belated post on my cousin's wedding few weeks ago.
I don't know what to elaborate about it but the wedding was different. Different as in the part where the groom went to pick up the bride and the games and ideas.

We were Team Alan! haha, we succeeded eventually.

Wedding dinner was at Cyberview Lounge Resort.
Food was okay and the set ups were pretty. Not much pictures took tho. :(

All I want for Christmas is,
A new camera ;(

School's starting and I'm not looking forward to it at all.
God, it's SPM year next year. I don't even believe it myself.
Let holiday last longer please:(

back to whatever I was doing.
Baaaaai :)

Wowzers.

2010-12-09T06:56:00.000-08:00

Am leaving to Ipoh for a week tomorrow so I'll miss everyone;(

Gonna eat like mad again! I still haven gain any much weight, how odd -.-

And thanks to Dove hair intense repair, my hair looks so much more healthier these days!

Today is one of the most boring days in my entire life,
Dota is getting boring, everyone's quitting dota, I've nothing better to do but to clean my room but I feel so god damn lazy this whole week, I'm always craving for food food food, I'm not always full and I'm searching for Form1 books. (so if you have any, please do contact me)

I'm going to go pack now, baaai ;)

wordless

2010-12-07T07:14:00.001-08:00

What's with the insecure feeling?
What's with this god damn feeling, this feeling that's constantly, mentally killing me?

Sometimes, I wish I could do more, seriously I do.
But I've always has my limits and my boundaries. No, maybe I've always been controlled, or I just wouldn't get that kind of chances. I've always wish I could do more. And maybe you'll say, do it, just do it, don't wish. The problem is, I can't do it at all and wishing is the only thing I can do. Most of the time.

I've a family that I love. Truly I do. I've two brothers whom are really close and I always have this wall with them since I'm the girl. I've a mom who loves me but loves my brothers more. My dad's not in this world anymore, when I was the closest to him. I never get to talk to my other family members truthfully and I'm always under pressure in the house.
I know a lot of people, tons of them but I don't get close with anyone everyone and people whom I got close to tend to leave all the time. I don't have someone whom I can talk to properly and tell them stories.

I've always got criticise on my looks, my body, my lifestyle, my friends, my family, my personal life and everything. I don't have someone to tell my secrets to and if I do, I wouldn't have the words to speak out everything and I'm terrified if that someone might betray me.
I've got a boyf whom I don't tell my problems to and never did I want to hurt him and burden him with anything but he's a sweetheart.
All I can do is talk to myself or to my imaginary daddy every night before I sleep and sometimes rant things out here when I'm on the way to explode.

I've always been trying, but trying wasn't always good enough. No, it was never good enough. Everything was wrong. And nothing was right. Everything I said, everything I requested, everything I tried. It was always bullshits and nonsenses.

I'm 16 and I'm living miserly for almost everyday in my life. I don't have a lot money, I don't have a lot of things, but I have money and I have things. I'm glad and I appreciate it. I'm not asking for more but I just need the security in my heart. I don't have that energy I need & I need plenty of love. I need plenty of attention because I'm breaking apart. I'm needing it, yes I'm needing it yet I'm not seeking for it anyhow.
Like I said, nothing works. I need it as I don't want people to purposely give it but just naturally passing it to me.

I'm not whatever great person. I don't do as much goods and people outside there. I'm not very bright nor anywhere smart. I'm always bad tempered and I hold grudges for a few days. I'm not very lady like and I think I'm still too young to handle any family responsibilities. I'm not choosy on any food, in fact I love food but what food depends on my mood and I'm always craving for food I like so it gets to the point where I would sacrifise a lot to get it. I pretty much won't show any love to anyone but I do love everyone.

I'm just lacking, very lacking. And I wish I'm not. I wish I've a bigger heart. I wish I could love more people and understand more people. The problem is, I'm already insecure, how to make people to feel secure when I can't even let myself be?

I won't ask for anything but I need that security feeling between my family and friends. That's all I'm asking for and whatever I do, I aim for that. That's the whole main point and the reason I started. But nobody understood.

I love my mom, I do. For everything she had done for me when dad's not around anymore. I love my brothers and I love my friends. I don't know what am I asking for but I need something. Something's missing. I feel not in place all the time and I feel I belong to something else in the world. The feeling's growing and the wonder is increasing. Not in place, yeah, that's the thing.

Like I said, I'm 16. 16 year old doesn't seem young. I don't want to be young anyway. Let the adults problems fall on me, I wouldn't mind. I want to earn money and do good with the money. I want to stop using other people's money and instead, give them my money.

Was I asking too much? But I'm not enjoying my teen life at all. I miss old friends dearly, I miss my childhood life dearly, I miss daddy dearly.
I'm all broken and broken again from time to time.

Need me to say more?
Wow, I don't remember a thing I typed but whatever, I'm posting this up.

Kim Hyun-Joong, (thefaceshop)

2010-12-05T04:45:00.000-08:00

Hi!!
I'm so sorry I haven been updating. This time, it's not that I didn't want to but as you all know, my camera died on me long time ago and I have to depend on other people's camera. I've got plenty of things to blog about but non of the people are posting up pictures ;(
Until then, I was lucky enough since my cousin care to borrow me her camera yesterday.
One very special day :)

And what day was it?
You would know it even if you're not thinking-.-
Or not!
Anyway,
Kim Hyun-Joong came to Malaysia as a spokesman for TheFaceShop!!
Excited, no ? :D
I was damn excited and over-joyed. Altho I'm not much his fan but he is THAT HOT!!

Apparently his arrival was suppose to be at 5pm but my friends and I was over encouraged? We left house at 8 IN THE MORNING and ate breakfast in McD before reaching Pavillion at 9am. HAHAHA. Feel the love? ;) Anyhoo, Pavillion was empty and proudly to say, we were second on the line! Got donuts, breads, drinks, snacks and all other things and sat there waiting while talking and camwhoring? :) Oh, and making plenty of friends!

And slowly people are arriving and lining up behind us. I did felt so proud and I don't think I was that eager to meet him but it was my first try doing something as crazy as that so I just waited. Ate lunch @ Pavillion's food court and continued on waiting. Weather was hot at all and I was grateful. Tho it started drizzling a little and then but all of us got umbrellas so we were saved.

Soon people in charge started to tell us details and set up registration booths. I have to admit that their coordinate and services not forgetting their organizing sequences was totally wrong and messed up. We were about to strangle them when they told us we can't go in! LIKE, WE WERE HERE FROM 9AM AND WAITED FOR 8 HOURS FOR HIM AND NOW THEY'RE TELLING US WE CAN'T ENTER?! Where's the head organizer man!? Plus we were told that we can go in since we bought their tickets so, helloooo?!

But I'm not going to complain any longer because after all the hard efforts talking and complaining and putting senses in their heads, ..... WE WERE GIVEN VIP PLACINGS! Honestly, we were too happy to do anything and of course we felt too good! And since we were the early birds, they gave out posters and face masks, hahaha.

Went back to the first of the line, WE WERE FIRST! RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE OPENING ENTRANCE!! My legs were killing me. 8 hours, can you believe it? Imagine if it was someone who I truly admire like, YongHwa. GG! HAHA. Anyway, we waited for his arrival and got in to place ourselves and prepare.

He was on time.
5pm when he drove in the event with all his bodyguards. (&%!(^*@ HE IS SHO SHO SHO SHO HOT!! Amazingly hot! He's too hot and too perfect, (altho I know he did plastic surgery -.-) BUT HE'S STILL HOT. Can you imagine the feeling when you see him smile?! He can become spokesman for Darlie man. HAHA The singer whom I listen to almost everyday in Itunes and the actor whom I watch him act in movies and shows and youtube videos appeared just right in front of me with his oh-so-dazzling smile and his tall and lean body!
I still can't believe he was just right there, 20steps away from us. *gasp :O

I wouldn't have the words to describe him. I'm all out of words. Or maybe he was just too good for words? But he stayed for only 30mins so it was disappointing ;(
We left right away after he left and went back to Sunway. Had dinner at Face2Face and Kor came and pick me up.

Did I mention I lost my voice? :p
Oppa oppa, na chinca chu'aeyo!
hehehe :p

Did I mention it was also my half year anniversary ? ♥

HEEE HEEEE, ily fish head :)

I'VE GOT A LOT "DID I MENTIONS", don't I? HAHAHAHAHA :p

Pictures,

triple the fun

2010-11-24T01:51:00.000-08:00

Hi.
This post is one day late as I was waiting for the pictures.
I seriously need a new camera:( My camera won't work in me anymore and the quality is suckier than ever. But to get a new camera? That's asking so much, really:(
But I still need a new one!

Anyway, mom sent me to Pyramid when she got back from work and I went and meet up the others at ATP. Most of them were er, styling their hair -.-

Left after everyone got ready and dressed up properly.
Reached Pavillion at around 4, if I'm not mistaken. Walked around and left the boys to themselves as we went to look at the shops. Was at Forever21 the whole time and taking pictures while waiting for the rest to arrive.
Went Starhill at 6 then paid and went in Jogoya for dinner:)

Food looked too much but when we started to eat, things seemed too little. I ate till I don't know what else to eat and I was still hungry. I just enjoyed it as it's a Japanese restaurant. It was sort of disappointing as I was hoping there's more choices. Not like i can think of anything else more but yeah, something's missing.
I did enjoy eating tho. Could have been better. I love the desserts there and I think I ate like 5 scoops of GreenTea ice-cream, haha! The boys were staring at me as if I was crazy. Despite the amount of food I ate that was a hell lot more than theirs :p

We stayed in Starhill a while after dinner and spent our time having fun by ourselves.
Left back to Pyramid and waited for FongKhei's cousin to pick us back home.
I was hungry by the time I got home;(

Metabolism rate , (Y) , agree? :)
Pictures!

Kor's back from Aussie today and we had lunch Subang Parade before I came back for this.
Gonna do something else nao. Baaaaai;)

Genting - Golden Bull Award

2010-11-17T07:09:00.000-08:00

Hi :)
I was in Genting last weekend for the annual Golden Bull Award.
Went up on Friday morning and was rehearsing and helping out until evening when me and the others went back to our rooms to change.

Dresses were chose, make up done by my aunt and I just straighten my hair and left it alone. haha, didn't had much time and didn't want to do anything too over.

Went and usher the winners at the cocktail section and all. Gathered them up and brought them to the hall. There even took a picture and posted in NanYang newspaper but I turned my back the moment they say they're posting this up :p hahaha, or you would have see me in the papers!

Pictures la LOL

Theme park next day with the cousins, Anna and the others.
Had plenty of fun but the line was awfully long so we skipped a few ;(
Was just enjoying the air and walking around to pass time. My legs were hurting really bad by the time we finish:(
Had some KoreanFood for dinner then left home :)

like my lolli? :D

Last Day of school tomorrow.
I'm thinking of which uniform I want to where, teehee!

fyi,
I'm dying for Vampire Diaries book 2 nowwwwwwww ;(
good night!

2010-11-15T07:31:00.000-08:00

Deep down inside,
perhaps I'm actually bleeding from everything you said to me.
And sometimes, I wish you could understand people's feelings a little before you do anything overboard. (I suppose this will be referring to me too but oh well) We just couldn't let each other in, can we?
Things are pretty different and we all know that.
I just hope it'll eventually work out.

Ps : I love Vampire Diaries :)

Penang Day 3

2010-11-14T04:24:00.000-08:00

Third day was sad. Wanted to go home since I've miss mummy so much but wanted to stay too ;( Since we had a long night the day before we slept through the morning without knowing and skipped breakfast . A few of them we so sad about it LOL. All thank to Eugene for forgetting to wake us up -.-

Anyway, dolled up and packed then went down to the lobby. Went to the pool side and camwhore while waiting for the others to come down.

People just look so good under the sun, don't you agree? I love the sun so much :D
Went to Oriental for brunch. Food was so-so but I ate like super a lot. heehee!
Nothing to elaborate here. Took group pictures and then went to Gurney Plaza.

Some split up and went shopping or movies and the rest of us went for Redbox.
The environment was really good. Loving the interior designs and how the decorations were but the services were pretty much disappointing ;(

Sang sang sang. Mostly R&Bs. The boys were like "YOU CAN READ KOREAN MEH" when me and Mingli sang korean song HAHA.
Well yeah, left at 4.30pm and off we go, leaving Penang;(

I think I was sleeping the whole time so we reached at Tanjung Malim for dinner.
Dinner was much better as the food was much appetising .
Left straight back to school after that :(
I feel so emo talking about this now HAHAHA

Jingles sho cute :D

Secretly took by Carmen -.-

Conclusion, Penang was super awesome. Poor thing a few of you can't make it and some didn't want to go. Thanks for insulting that the trip wouldn't work but fyi, it was the bomb and everything went super smoothly.

I've got Genting event to blog about next so stay tune!
I want to dota nao, kthxbai :D

Penang Day 2

2010-11-11T01:01:00.000-08:00

Morning call was at 7am for heaven's sake -.-
Couldn't be more tired than usual. All you can see was eyebags under everyone's eyes especially mine ;( Breakfast was said to be awesome but it was so-so to me. Epic moment happened when I was taking my drink and Carmen's to the table until a old granny had some leg problem and fell on me. -.- The whole cafe was looking at us and I was helpless. Pfft. I can still feel the stiffness in my legs!

Went back to the room the rest before we got ready for lunch time.

Headed to THE BEST CHARKUEYTEOW I've ever tasted in my life!! Mhhhm, I just love it when they put Chinese sausages into the noodle! Wasn't full so ate another bowl of deeeeeelicious laska! HAHA
I'm a great eater and I'm proud :D
Had the best cendol too before leaving. Yummyy (Y) Seriously. Sadly I couldn't take much ice so I ate a little. Walked around the streets a little then we headed back to the bus. Tour around a little and went back to the hotel .

Practically all of us couldn't wait to get to the beach. We dolled up and prepared then left straight to the beach. Camwhore a whole lot before everyone else arrive.

Everyone left for their ride and I went for another round of Banana Boat with the girls. HAHAHA. I love banana boats, do you ? :D The waves were huge and the sea water was really salty. We had fun screaming tho ;)

After all those salt water we decided to head to the pool and to play. How pitiful the weather turned so cold we the girls couldn't stand it. We tried warming ourselves and swam a little but gave up and rushed back to the room.

Again we dolled up to prepare for dinner.
My join room was like a meet up point for everyone, heh.

Went Gurney Drive for dinner. Ordered so many things but we finished them all. Did some joke and I swear so many other tables/families were staring at us as if we're crazy. Okay, at least they thought Abang was crazy when he helped us ordered Pork Satay. LOL.

KahMing was so nice he treated us with Starbucks coupons. Went with the boys to get our drinks then chilled around a while. Headed back to the bus and went back to the hotel.

As usual, everyone came in our room and waited for everyone else. Prepared the drinks and played games again. This time more people joined and not so hardcore so it wasn't as awesome as the day before's.

We went to the beach at night to chill and relax before heading back up to the room. Realising the other girls were sleeping on our beds. Or more like gossiping and telling stories. Me, Mingli and Justina joined as we talked through the nights without the boys. However when we were about to get some sleep, JingHer, Abang and Eugene came in and woke us up.

Music was on and we played while eating cendol? Had pillow fight that got us so awake. I was pretty sure that everyone couldn't open their eyes anymore so we all decided to sleep. Took us some time to do so but we did in the end.
I slept like a pig, didn't I? HAHAHA :p

That's all for Day 2.
Will be off to Genting tomorrow morning until Saturday? So I'll keep the third day's one until I come back. Or if I feel like it, later at night ;)
School's been a bore.
Talentine today was so boring and everything was almost the same. The last part of some performance brought back a little bad memories so I left earlier.

It's 6.00pm now and I need dinner.
I think mummy's cooking!! :D
Ciaaaao

Penang Day 1

2010-11-10T05:34:00.000-08:00

I'm going to put some effort in this since I haven even my previous posts so work with me! hahaha. Anyway, I was in Penang for the pass weekend with the love ones . So here goes.

DAY 1
Dinner with the darlings in OldTown @ Pyramid before we head home and hung out. A few of the others came by after that and we chit chat and camwhored for quite some time.

Carmen's daddy was nice enough to fetch all of us to school to catch up with the bus. Before everyone reach, me and the boys rushed to 7-eleven to grab some food for the journey.
And off we went. It started off quite I suppose, everyone was sound asleep until the back seats start making noises and more noises as we go.

JingHer's speaker (Y)

Took us 8 hours to get to Penang HAHAHA. We stopped in many stops and drove slowly thats why. Some needed to sleep but couldn't and some won't sleep at all. But the journey was fun:)

Got all hyped up when we reached Penang. Couldn't wait to jump into the pool or take a shower. We were all so oily! pffft. Had breakfast at some random hawker stall and headed to the War Museum.

We spent so much time there and man the weather was so damn hot! I was wearing shorts so there were mosquito bites. I felt extremely uneasy and the history talk was so long.

The tour guild, Michael was so generous he offered all of us paintball tries. We did 20palets each before heading back to the bus!

Left for the first Penang oh-sho-awesome-food! LAKSA. Damn damn my favourite, BIG TIME! Service was so fast and efficient except the weather was still burning hot. I knew why it was famous when I took the first bite of it. I ate two bowls and I wanted my third but I think it's so troublesome so I didn't ;(

Some spited up after that and some of us went for cendol and walked around a little before heading back to the bus. Drove to the hotel and checked in. Hotel room is so big (Y) ROom mates were Carmen, Justina and Mingli. Unpacked our stuff and rested our eyes before changing to our outdoor cloths.
Headed to the beach !!
wooooo

Banana boat, camwhore, swimming, pool games everything!
I bet everyone was having so much fun ;)
Sadly we had to go back to the room and change for dinner.
Finally, a bath?

Dolled up before heading down to the lobby to meet up with the others.

I don't know where we went but it looks like a mini Pasar Malam. Ate dinner at a huge hawker stall then walked around to spend the next 2 hours. Didn't had that much mood as we were all still so sleepy! Got purse for mom and myself, chio much ? Bought a few bottles of coke and snacks for later at night.

Everyone gather in our room and the boys did briefing on the games we're playing. Thanking the people who brought the drinks. The game was hilarious! Everyone was having fun and doing funny things. Some kae-oed hald way, HAHA!
Eugene even bang the mirror for god sake -.-

All went back after we finished and slept through the night.
First day was tiring but I sure did have a lot of fun, did you ?

Perhaps I don't want to go so detail for safety purpose.
I'll continue with day 2 tomorrow, if I managed it.
Good night now ;)

we're coming!

2010-11-04T20:29:00.000-07:00

PENANG for 3 DAYS!!
I'M HUNGRY ALREADY
:D :D :D

what's so screwed up?

2010-10-30T23:29:00.002-07:00

I feel so pissed at the moment I don't think I can study.
Why am I so mad?
Because I'm sick of hearing people rant about their parents or complain about them or even worst, cursed them and swear at them here on the web.
What's so screwed up about them towards you that you have to keep on ranting about how they treat you? They start nagging, you complain, they hit you, you complain. Ever try sitting back and think why are they like that? If you don't then let me tell you that they did it because they love you. They could just leave you alone, go hang out with their friends, facial, tour or whatever but why they choose to stay home and look at whatever you're doing and judge you? BECAUSE THEY LOVE YOU. If they don't they wouldn't even give a shit about what's happening in your life.
And now you're telling me you want them dead or just asked them to leave you alone.

What if that curse of yours really happened?
Do you think you can live a life until you're 80, 90 with that kind of feeling that you cursed your parents until they're dead haunting you? What are you going to tell your family next time?
You have no idea how does it feel like losing a parent or both of them. You have seriously no idea how it feels like. It's always the human nature, to have greed and take advantage of everything they got and until they lose that something, they only realised that they're wrong.
You're not doing things the hard way yet so just get over the damn attitude of you cursing your parents and listen to the advise to love and appreciate them for as long as you or they live. You don't want to come to the stage where you have to regret things, and tear up on everything later on.
People who had lost something know how it feels. I know how it feels and it sucks so much more than you stabbing yourself a zillion times.

Sometimes the kind of things you say make me want to slap the hell out of you, to rip you alive and drown you in your stupid so call misery. Try thinking and putting your shoes to other people's position first before you do anything so reckless. As much as you hate someone, I hope so damn much to love someone as much as you hate that someone. Seriously. You cursed them to be dead, I hoped he's alive. You want them to suffer, I want him to be in peace. You want every bad things to happen to them, I want every single good things that is in life to happen to them. Do you know how I feel?

You won't be who you are without them. Whether they treated you good or torture you to the max. You wouldn't be who you are without them. You wouldn't even exist without them. Better off not existing than being a child who curse their own parents. Where will you live? Who will support you 100%? Who will give you your allowance? Who will bring you to your favourite places and guarantee your wealth and health? You think your best friends can help you when you're in trouble? Yes, I won't deny that they will help but how long will they help you? Your other family members will be there for you. Yes they will, but don't they have their own kids to look after? Or my grandparents can look after me. How long are they to live to look after you? And you're not even passed the age to work and you have no experience in life at all, and you tell me you can live a life without them? In the life right now, you'll just end up rotting for heaven's sake.
They are willing to die for us, are we willing to die for them?
Are you so god damn big hearted to do such huge sacrifise for them? Are you?

Even if you don't, at least appreciate and treasure all the moments you got. Once they're gone, they're really gone. It'll hit you once you finally realised. It'll definitely hit you. It will definitely crush you into more pieces you can imagine. It's not the kind of feeling when you break up with your boyfriend/girlfriend. Or when a bunch of friends start backstabbing you and hate you. Or your best friends leave you all alone. Or you lost your pet or lose something you love. Even if you combine all these pain together won't beat the pain you lose your parents. You really can't compare. It's a different pain. Very very different and much more painful than anything.

Are you still complaining how little allowance your parents gave you? You get 50bucks a day, or sometimes even more. I wonder why do you need so much money in one day? I really wonder. I got 2bucks a day and I'm not complaining a single bit. Use 1buck, save 1buck. Not very hard, is it? Are you still complaining that you don't have any branded goods like how all your other friends have? Are you still complaining that you don't have an IPhone4 , or a MacBook , or a DSLR , or a Ipad whatever?
Are you still god damn complaining about how screwed up your life with your parents around?
If you are, I want to screw your god damn brain and burn you alive! I seriously want to do it.

For now, just sit back and think, okay? Think of the things you actually said about your parents. You don't have to regret it but I think it's time for you to stop and appreciate things they do for you and treasure the times that they're with you. They're not going to live with you forever. Don't wait until they leave you and you regret. Don't wait until that sort of moment. It'll be too painful for you to handle, trust me.

thriller

2010-10-25T06:57:00.000-07:00

HI! I'm taking a break from study!
muahahahhaha!
Tomorrow Accounts man! Nervous can die!
So far not good at all. Finals wasn't easy, as expected.
(Y) I just don't want to fail. HAHA
What a an aim!
Altho, I've realised something when I was studying on Saturday. Studying Physics.
I realised all I need to do was just put in effort, lots of it and I know I can do it. Honestly, I don't know shits about Physics at all and after Saturday, I guess I can manage it better than I expected. So, I'm going to reconsider in dropping Biology next year! All I need is effort, yes! That sounded scary -.-
10 subjects is a lot for me. I don't think my brain can manage that much information like the smart people. ;( It's not about effort or anything but my brain just don't take that much in! lol

Anyway, I was talking about the new product of Dove I've been recently using, right? ;)

New loveeee!
Dove Intense Repair shampoo, conditional, leave-on cream, overnight repair and my Loreal hair mask ♥ ♥ ♥ I've never felt my hair any healthier. Like serioussssssly! HAHA. Not expensive at all. Besides, it smells good, looks pretty and do good to us. Why not? :D
After a week, my natural highlights actually stand out! It's been so long since I've seen it stand out that much. And my hair feels so light and non greasy at all! I think my hair grows extra faster than usual too. LOL.
Just recommended. You can get it everywhere :)

Speaking of hair,
BYE BYE BANGS
You have been my craziest fringe cut ever and you've caused plenty pimples on my foreheads. Not forgetting the times you didn't intend to poke my eyes! How frustrating but I had my times with you. I still love you ♥

Yaay Side Fringe! Wooooooo, I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY :D
Does my hair look healthier? I don't think you can differentiate it here:(
Yeaaaaah, I'm likey likey my side fringey!
HAHA. I'm so happy!

Took my long enough. I think I've enough break for now.
Back to date my accounts books;(
Not looking forward to it.
Goodnights :D

GOD BLESS ME FOR THE REST OF MY FINALS. 19 PAPERS MORE TO GO!

deng deng deng

2010-10-23T02:20:00.000-07:00

I want to cry when I look at this! HAHA
Good old times! I miss them like craaaaaaaaap.
YOU KNOW :D

Okay, so this is what exactly happened after I studied for 3 hours (Y)

HEHEHEHE.
Spot the 2 big cards behind!
The most memorable ones ♥
Finals are killing. I swear I'm going to go crazy on the amount of things we have to study. Pfft. And why am I here? Just so I don't get crazy -.- HAHA Okay la, life is actually that sad. Form4 is deadmeat and I can't believe SPM is next year -.- Din't we just finish PMR?
SPM? What SPM? Just don't come -.-

Everyone seemed prepared except for me!
So awesome, right right right :D
I feel so moody and
I want GreenTea icecream.
Oh god.
I really hate Physics and I need to start on stupid Sejarah
>:)

Ciao.

yer:(

2010-10-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

AIYOYO, FINALS IS HERE LA.

LIFE IS SO SAD YOU KNOW!