Okay , I'm going to apologies for the lack of update these few days . I've been away for the weekend and yesterday I was too exhausted and there were too many pictures for me to blog . I took the whole damn day to finish uploading the pictures . Okay , maybe not that long but because I was busy dota-ing all the time and 1 game takes around 1 hour . Ha , but whatever I'm done now and will try to blog everything out . Man , I feel lazy .

Anyway , I was out with my family , which includes my mom , kor , di and me with my mom's sis , my aunt , uncle and their daughter .
Booked our holiday few months back to HardRock Hotel , Penang for a night but we went earlier so decided to stay in my aunt's house in Ipoh .

Started our journey at 2pm and reached Ipoh around 4pm . Went for food . By any chance if you understand what crap I'm typing , we ate , Nga Choy Kai :D Good food :) Went to get soya after that and went shopping since I was desperately needing a new sandals .



Left the boys to wherever they want to go and went around shopping with mummy . Got a black sandals from one of the shop . Mummy got herself a heels and a new handbag and got me a new vintage like sling bag :) Mummy had to attend a funeral after that so she left me and the brothers for movies . YenFeng and me watched NewMoon . Man , and KL was packed with NewMoon fans and everywhere was fully booked . The one we watch in was so empty -.- Kor watched some Ninja thing .


By that time we finished mummy haven make it to fetch us so we hung around Starbucks with our drinks until mummy came . Aunt was in the car with her and we wanted supper so went to some road side hawker center for food . Was bloated so I just had a drink and we went back to the house .



Woke up at freaking 6.30am the next morning and went for breakfast at a nearby hawker center . Food was also really good :) Aunt can't stop making us laugh -.- YenFeng splited noodles out and I had my milo out lol -.- By 7.30am we were on our way to Penang :) Slept the whole way through until we got to the ferry .






Only took 10mins for the ferry to get us to the other side . Didn't know where to go so we just look around and sometimes came down form the car for the beach view . Then decided to go to some temple which I already forgotten the name now -.- Did some donation and some praying for daddy and took plenty of pictures which I didn't post up . Came back down and ate at some nearby hawker center again . Prawn Mee was love ! Laksa everything was good too ! After food we were on the way to the hotel :)









I remember Glenn texted me about him sawing a girl who looked alike with me in KL , HAHA :P

Anyway , so it took us 30mins to get there and man the hotel was ze bomb . Campus is wow . And 5 stars ?! I'm going to sue any other 5 stars hotels that would charge us more than HardRock Hotel . lol . I didn't felt like going into the pool or anything before I reach the hotel but after what I saw , who wouldn't want to! It'll be a waste if you just sulk in the room -.-







Walked around , looking at all the facilities and got free drinks from the hotel , yum yum :) Check in , unpack all out things , change and was really excited to jump into the pool already :) Got our towels and , find a nice spot then off I go . I jumped down the pool which has a bar at the side and lots of hotties . haha





The other family came and join me . Make friends with those Australians hotties , haha man they were such nice people :) AND HOT! lol . Rich enough too . How can they possible use 6000bucks in half a day for only their liquor -.- They got me and ze brother some and chit chat on the bar for quite some time . Went to the beach after that . Had jet ski . Wanted to try parachute but mom was getting paranoid about me dropping to the sea so didn't -.-













How cool is the pool place !? Had to come out from the pool at 6.30pm . I was starving . So said our goodbyes . Got phone numbers and left back to the room to clean ourselves .

























Got presents from the hotel then left . Went to the toy museum first and then headed to some other temples which my aunt wanted to go .








Went to Fort Cornwalls and walked around the place for an hour and we went for beca HAHA . My god , it was so scary . Like they so big go cycle in the middle of the road . I swear I thought I was going to die . I can't stop jumping around the thing . hahaha













We were starving and time didn't let us to stay any longer so we drove pass the Penang bridge and went to Butterworth for food . Got slizzing mee and slept for another 2 hours until we got back to Ipoh .



Went to some hawker store and got food again . Food was as awesome as ever :) Why oh why KL don't have food as good ? :( Ipoh and Penang got good food all over the place -.-


This time we went back to my grandfather's house . Didn't felt like bathing yet so I was lying on the bed in my room and started calling people through mummy's phone . Some very nice friends didn't god damn pick up their phones -.- I was dead bored .
And suddenly aunt got out shoes for me . My god . plenty plenty plenty of pretty heels . I was dying looking at them haha .
I chose 4 pairs only and was on the phone with Xuelin until I changed and went to bed .


Got up early the next morning and went to the back of the house for food . Again it was deeelicious . I really wished my lil tummy can fit 2 bowls of those noodles D:
Slept for 4 hours after I get back and had wantanmee for lunch before heading home .



There there , finally omg , FINALLY I'm freakinglish done . Did I mention that I got bitten by a red ant on the beach and my right foot has been itching for days D: Really really itchy ! And that I have really bad but still nice dreams that few nights . Really hurt the hell out of me but it's good that it's still feel so real to me :)

And and and , I improve in dota! Omg , so happy ! hahaha .
I gained weight and missing Xuelin so freakinglish much . When will we go out ? :(

Hi , I'm blogging early again am I ? :) Finally something more decent to blog about other than that stupid emo posts . Something more productive .

Was suppose to wake up at 5am this morning to get ready . (As you all know , I take hours to get myself ready , haha) But I totally had forgotten about the launch I'm suppose to be attending today so I slept through an hour and finally mom had to wake me up and I rushed the hell out of me . Got dressed up in my very very formal business-like clothes and went down .Just took a big cup of milk and my medicine and me , kor , YenMeeng , ZiYean and my aunt went off to KL .

Reached there at 7am sharp and had our rehearsal on stage .

OH , I've forgotten to mention what this blog is about . HAHA . Some eco product thing named IGEM official launch in KL convention center .

Did all the rehearsal and was done by an hour . Took a slight breakfast there and had to prepare since the guest were all coming already . Greet them at the door , something like being an usher bla bla . Ha , wtf . Some business stuff . Got to know more about the whole exhibition thing since Adam explained later on .

Minister of something something something came and we prepare ourselves behind stage . Did all the presenting of the companies around the world . Managed to finish everything around2 hours . Lunch was provided and food was good ;)

Hanged around , packed , clean up and strolled around the area until 3pm and left back . I swear my 4 feet heels are killers . I had blisters all over my leg , ouch . All of us were too exhausted to stay awake .
Well , I am now ;P

I've a couple pictures . Well not couple but quite a number of them . lol
Do mind that we do look like high ranks officers working in KLIA . hahaha






















Now , would you agree that I look like some college girl who just finish my course in catering and it's my first day in interview ? HAHA . Nah . I still think I look like I work in KLIA ;P Mature much

Anyway , cousin's waiting to dota . Ciao ♥


Oh and , HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE YOKE SHAN :D

I just realised how many emo posts there are in my blog these days . Gee , I'm going to try stop that . It's sickening me , lol . I would try to start keeping it to myself or make a private dairy and write it all out . I just need to find a better way to express things .

Anyway , I've been in full schedule lately so that also means I won't be watching NewMoon anytime soon . Was about to get tomorrow's seats but out of no where I was asked to some Eco launching thing in KLCC convention center tomorrow . Which also leads me to tell you how old I will look tomorrow .


As if looking like 17 is not enough . I look like a 25 D:My god . Will be waking up at 5am tomorrow to make out , dressed up and have to leave at 6.30am . TSK . Some launching . All formal-ish .

I had been sick and didn't had the mood to drink any water . As if I even drink water la :D I haven drink as much as I should when I was sick . I woke up with my whole lips bleeding today . Like some vampire who just sucked blood out of someone . Plus the eyebags . I look so horrible and , scary . Reminded me of Jennifer's Body . HA :/

Feel like dota-ing already . Where's Marcuz ? D:
I like big butts and I cannot lie . Some random joke spammed while dota-ing . Now I can get some good joke to laugh at Manesh :D


Mom's going to kill me if she finds out I didn't eat my medicine again . Shoosh ;P

今天可说是老爸离开我的身边半年了吧。不想念他是不可能的。一个一个的那么离开，我快不能接收这些刺激。也许一些人不知道失去一位父亲的感觉是怎么的痛苦，怎么的恐怖。也许人就是那样，不知道一样东西的重要直到失去以后。

一直以来，有问题就到老爸那边去，知道他一样还会说是我的错，但至少他明白我的想法。现在一当老妈怪我，一定会想起老爸，想起每一次被人怪的事后，老爸时常对我说的那一句话。眼泪就会流出来。不是生气老妈骂我而哭，是想念老爸才哭。

已经6个月了。离开我6个月了。害怕了6个月。要怎么维持这个家？我好象一生中没抱过老爸超过30次。一生中好象只在他临走一天前亲过他一次。看到别人有父亲，我好羡慕。就最讨厌那些可以在父母后面说他们的坏话，骂父母的话。

痛不是他离开的痛。是他临走的那几个星期，在痛苦的时候，他离开给的最后的映象。想起来不哭我就不是人。听到别人有一样的病，我就担心得很。

做个父亲很辛苦吧。为了这一个家，老爸所付出的一切，我一世是报答不完的。为了这个家，一天到晚都只顾着找钱让我们过个幸福的家。我们一点家庭时间都从来没有。若你问我，我宁愿过贫穷的生活但有个温暖的家庭，完整的家庭，都不要一个富有，天天吃大餐但少了一位家人的家。

想念你，我以好久没梦见你。好想你的声音。



I just recover a lil from my fever and haven got the appetite to eat anything lately . Mind's been really blank and feeling really exhausted these days . I can even fall asleep at 9pm when my usual sleeping time is 12 midnight . Been also trying to do as much things as I can find to get my head off things . I've been staring on the walls busy daydreaming too much . I'm feeling so numb already .
Why am I so emotional these days ?

Gah , I'm sick again :( For god knows what reason . Manesh woke me up to dota this morning at freaking 8.30am which I din't make it so I just went for a bath and after that I felt that my whole body was about to burn itself . Went down to ask mummy check on me but she say I'm okay , and I thought , fine , always say I'm okay when I'm not .

Aunt asked me to accompany Grandma to get her passport so I went but half way I felt so sick I was about to puked , faint . Driver got me to the doctor to check on me . I got a fever over 38degrees , flu , cough , dizzy , sore throat & body aches which are all caused by my coughings . Felt really weak I could hardly move :/ Doctor gave me green medicines :D One has a crown print on it , my god . So cute , HAHA


SEEE :) I got home , took some food and get my medicine thing done . I hate medicines . I hate getting sick ! Didn't felt like sleeping so I gamed around a little and well , I was too weak to do anything so I forced myself to sleep on the couch .

Got up and felt really better then dota with Manesh , finally . lol .
I'm actually wrapping myself with plenty of clothes . I've got my boxers on and tights then my pyjamas long pants with my pink TopShop tee and my favourite jacket . Some might know which :) Tho , the smell is really fading and replacing it with mine . Not a good thing . What I have left ? It's the only jacket I feel all comfy in . I wear it every night when I sleep . Mhmm .

So anyway , I still feel all the aches around my body and am really craving for sweet things . My mouth's feeling so tasteless .

I had been thinking about my childhood times . And I miss them . Miss the parts where I don't have to worry about anything and people will come say that they will solve my problems . Times when I can cuddle in people and let them comfort me without worrying anything . Unlike now , I've been keeping so many things in me and never had the guts to let it out .
Sigh .

Anyway , I've been going through songs sent by a friend and currently this one is my favourite . Suited how I think , exactly how I think . Don't know if you heard it before but good song :)



I did try putting myself together and really tried letting it go but I just god damn can't and I'm so mad of myself for creating more problems for myself and that I've to face my problems the other way and make it so much worst for me .
I hate that I'm like that . This suck so bad , I'm hurting myself .

Do love the song .


P.S / Manesh , do cheer up . I now exactly how you feel . It hurts but you know what to do and that's really good . Nothing actually but we can't smother them . Like you say .